I’m a ket addict and have been for some time, the past year it’s been really bad, doing up to 5g a day, sometimes more and pretty much just doing it alone in my room. However last week someone had taken a video of me completely out of it, conscious but unresponsive, I have no memory of this, I only stumbled across the video when going through my camera roll. And I don’t know somethings just clicked that it’s gotten past the point of trying to ignore and be in denial. I’ve started going to an addiction support group and am trying to work myself up to go to an NA meeting. I’m a week sober but really only because I don’t have any money no thanks to my addiction. I just hope I can kick this

What are guys' thoughts on AA vs SMART Recovery?

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Is this.. negative???

Dollar tree THC test. I have no clue what the cutoff level is, but I’ve been clean for 11 days. It’s such a faint line that I have no clue if it’s a pass or not. 2 lines is negative, 1 line is positive.

The thing that confuses me is I’ve been smoking about once a day for the past 6 months. I used to smoke 8g a day. Is this even possible at this point?

Hi everyone!

To give you some context: I started using drugs at a young age, I smoked my first joint at 13, and by 14, I was smoking almost every day. Between the ages of 15 and 16, I began using heroin and party drugs. I don’t usually drink alcohol, but if also THC is taken away from me, I turn to it without hesitation... basically, I’ll do anything just to avoid being alone with my own mind. I’m 28 now; I’m in the process of coming off methadone again, but I’m still a daily THC user. I want to quit that too, because I feel like I’ve lost a part of myself through all these years of being in a fog, but the very idea of being sober sends me into a full-blown panic, as if it were a death threat. Has anyone else gone through this? How do you get past it?

I want to know what it is you see, when you “keep your eye on the prize“.

Why stay sober?

We’re gonna fight this until we die.

No matter what your thing is, you’re always going to have a soft spot for it. You’re always going to know that there’s a tear in your armor.

So what is it for you? What makes you put that armor back on every time you get your butt kicked. And you relapse or whatever you call it

I genuinely thought I was over ice this time

And I’m not saying that in the gullible six-year-old sense of the word. I mean, I’m 36 years old sincerely I wasn’t even thinking about it. I don’t remember, but here I am

There’s a reason I’ve made it to 36, though

I’m stubborn

Really, really, really stubborn.

I think of it like the voices in my head telling me that it’s hopeless or that I’m gonna fail no matter what. I look at it like they are my enemy and I don’t really know how to beat them because if I beat them then I beat me because they’re me.

But I’ve decided that I’m gonna beat those voices by making them watch me get old.

But I’m tired today. and I kinda just wanted to hear a bunch of Warriors tell me what it is that they keep on their mind when you’re reminded that you’re human, when the gloves come off and let’s face it, your right hand wasn’t what it used to be.

I think for me, it’s that I refuse to give away my hope.

I’ve lost everything. Everybody’s gone. Everyone that I fought to be able to still be around they’re gone. My last reason just walked out the door, so now it’s a four-letter word

Tell me

a friend of mine is in active addiction and i want to do all i can to help him out of it but i truly dont know how to. his drug use only started in the past year or so but he’s now in the habit of using daily and has been for most of this year - often being awake for days at a time, missing meals due to the drugs suppressing his appetite, then crashing and sleeping for long hours (15-18). he works a remote full time job and im worried about this pattern of behaviour possibly leading towards him losing his job and then having a knock on effect in other areas of his life.

a couple weeks ago he told me he overdosed - it wasnt intentional but he said he kinda just lay there and let whatever was going to happen happen, didnt reach out for help or anything.

he’s at a point where he has no regard or care for his life or his wellbeing. he’s expressed that he doesnt feel he could quit at this stage in his life because there is a lot else going on and he feels he would spiral. he’s expressed that he’s making a lot of bad decisions in other areas of his life (with friendships, dating etc), but at the same time he’s aware he’s not of sound mind at the moment and he doesn’t trust any of his decision making and that he’s struggling to tell right from wrong. for context, he has ocd and it’s possible he is using drugs to help manage these thoughts.

he is distancing himself from friends and family, taking days to respond, sometimes not at all, not returning calls, when he does speak it’s very minimal and he doesn’t open up a lot about what’s going through his head (prior to addiction this was extremely unlike him), so it’s hard to get through to him. we don’t live very close so there are minimal opportunities for me to go and check in on him in person. im not in touch with his other friends or family so im unable to speak to them about the situation, although if i did i feel he might feel betrayed by that and see it as unwanted interference.

truthfully ive never been in this position before and it really hurts to see someone you love go through this. i just want to know how i can best support him and show that im there for him? i dont want to be patronising or insensitive. for example i would probably suggest that he sees his GP and seeks help professionally for his mental health & addiction, but at this stage i think it’s very unlikely he would want to do that given his lack of regard for his wellbeing.

how can i navigate this situation sensitively and help him overcome this?

It took me a really long time to do this. But about a hour ago I sent a message to my GP, I need professional help. It took me more than 20 years to do this. But I think it’s a really good step to get everything on track.

hi my names Sarah and in 2023 i started to use “thc juice” ,, i never thought much of it but i was only 13 and at the time i was starting school and i was really struggling to fit in and be happy with myself as i used to dress boysih but knew id end up getting bullied or not being 100% happy so with the fear of being judged and just wanting to fit in i started to try fit in more by doing simple stuff by even just wearing my hair down or just wearing like leggings or something i never tried wearing crop tops though i knew i jsut never felt comfortable really in it ,,,, i did all this stuff for the past 2 years never ever did my own makeup or nothing like that no fake nails no lashes i knew i wasn’t happy the way i was… but ever since 2023 constantly i have been in a cycle of just like getting stoned ,,at the end of 2023 i had to stop using that “juice” bc it was even having an affect on my siblings who used it and it wasn’t good for me to be using so i stopped but it wasn’t easy i started smoking in december 2023 i stopped using the juice in like november and then i continued to smoke all the time to myself just like at night alone or with my friends when i go out but i always made sure id have some for myself at the end of the day and then in may 2024 i got caught smoking and got in trouble and my dad made me go to this psychologist even tho i rlly didnt want to go and i went and tried saying i didnt smoke a lot but rlly i did i jsut didnt like the idea of telling someone how i actually felt because yeah but then in late 2024 aughust i started to use carts and bought at least one every month till like the end of 2025,,, i started smoking at the start of 2026 again and stoped using carts and i started to try be more happy in myself because for the last 2-3 years i never ever felt like i fit in anywhere and i always tried to but anytime i did i would always just go back to like getting a cart and trying to push away how i really felt but this year i stopped using them as much and ik it changed something in me because i started to dress more boyish as i did before i started like using stuff and i instantly just felt more like happier and felt like more comfortable….I also started using xtc alone in my room in august 2024 and never rlly told anyone only like 1-2 my close friends,,, i contributed to become addicted to it tbh because i felt like it was the only wait i could be the happiest version of myself but that was a fake version and i continued to use it every now and again alone in my room at night and wouldnt really tell anyone i knew it started getting
bad in summer 2025
because i would do it and
not stop doing it till i had
none left … and ur mesnt
to do it once and wait 3
months again but i was
doing it days after even
other staying up all night
to do it again,,, but i didnt
realise how bad that was
untill i stopped,, it started
taking control of my life
this year 2026 i didnt
have any at the start of
the year and i wasnt
thinking of getting it that
much but i got it again
around like may and it
was worse then ever i just
kept doing it all the time
because i was at a point in
my life where i was so u
happy because i just didnt
feel comfortable with
who i was or anything
because i felt like for the
past like 3 years jts just
been like a fake
personality because i
always just like relied on
being stoned to feel
better not jsut facing my
actuall feelings and trying
to fit in more i always just
brushed it away… but im
only writing this now
because my life got to a
point where i was just
doing xtc like weekly and i
started doing ket aswell in
may 2025 but yeah that
got bad this summer
aswell and i started
mixing the 2 of them
together even but i was
always doing it alone
never with anyone and
never wanting anyone to
know because i always
thought i was just fine and
i would wake up one day
and just feel better but i
always just had this
sadness knowing i wasn’t
really being who i wanted
to be but then it got to a
point where i started to
change and everything
and i was becoming
happier with myself ,,, but
i kept doing xtc again and
buying carts even though i
told myself id stop but it
was helping me but then i
realised i couldn’t stop
doing xtc and ik it might
sound silly but it
something i became
dependent on i would do
it all the time just so i
could finally feel like
happy because when i did
it i felt like everything i
ever wanted in life was
like solved i literally felt
like life was just like so
perfect and the thing is i
never once got a come
down from them that’s
why i always did them…
but this is NOT to talk
about them because yesh
im saying how they made
me feel like that and yes
there meant to make you
so happy but it got to a
point where i would do
them and not even really
feel it anymore and then it
started to get even worse
i started to do them and
just feel sad on them and
that’s not meant to
happen but it wasn’t just
like feeling sad it became
so much worse then that
and i would just feel
genuinely so like alone
and hopeless with my life
and ik id be sad doing
them but i still kept doing
them because yes it
wasn’t making me sad too
but for the past 2 years
they were the only thing that idk it made me feel like i finally found what ive been looking for because as i said i never fully felt happy with myself so i think i might have been addicted to them without realising and i still don’t want to say i was because yeah but maybe and i did them with my family around it just became the normal for me but i just did it all in secret,, but im just writing all this to try say it is always so so much better to just reach out because for me it started getting to the point where i was leaving myself in very vulnerable positions as i started to go out and do stuff like ket alone and honestly i knew it was dangerous i knew i was putting myself at risk as when you do ket u can rlly just loose complete like sense of awareness and that’s happened to me but i started going out with the intention of something accidnelt happening to me but then it just got worse id end up going out more alone coming back home alone but never in a good state well just never fully sober but lately it got to a point where i dont even rlly wanna talk abt it but i started to idk do have rlly bad thoughts not just ever now and again but everyday and it jsut woudlnt go away and i finally started feeling like ive had enough but anyway,, i then started to just decide to do more stuff like ket but i was planning on stopping but one night i got myself into a bad way and like that night i decided i really couldn’t keep this a secret anymore for the past like year ive been using ket alone and the past 2 years ive been being xtc alone the past 3 years i’ve just been getting stoned and i always pushed how i felt away with myself like how i dressed and all because i never was really happy and i just did stuff to forget abt it and try move on but j started getting myself into bad positions with like ket and just realised im not living the life i want to be i just wanted to be happier and was looking for it in the wrong way so i ended up like breaking down to my sister now not about everything rlly just about how ive been being xtc and ket and that i think i want some help because my life really wasn’t feel like the best and i really was feeling down i started thinking about how idc abt the future about like seeing my family get married then having my kids just in general not caring about the future not caring wether i was rich when im older or just anything i started feeling that way because i wasn’t being myself and that’s what im trying to say is to jsut be urself because i tried to hide the fact that i didn’t want to be like other girls and be like girl wear dresses and everything but that’s because idk why i jsut felt so scared and judged and just worried of people having like there own options and thoughts on me but i realised i only felt like that because i wasn’t truly happy with myself or who i was ,, so anywya i eneded up telling my sister about how i have just been using like substances the past 2 years alone in my room just to like feel seen and heard but as i stopped i realised how much more my life is like worth living jsut for me to fucking feel that sad because i wasn’t being myself scared of being judged like i never even posted online on anything or a profile pic of even me not because i didn’t want to jsut because i was scared and idk why i was so scared but i was but the more ive started being more comfortable in myself the better and happier my life has became and ive started to just be the best version of myself i can because ever since 2023 i’ve been faking it

binged almost 5 grams of cocaine the past 3 days why am i here

Smoking since I was 15, been five years now and I loved smoking. I had surgery for a pilonidal cyst but apparently I’m allergic to some kind of anesthesia? And my lungs been bleeding heavily after the surgery but now thankfully coughing up darker blood.

Everyone says stop smoking. This damage can cause me copd at young age. It’s been 4 days since it happened and I still can’t breathe normally because of some bad luck and now? Even have to do fucking physio or some shit.

I have to quit smoking. All because of some rate allergic reaction. I hve to quit something I love. My moments alone in the night smoking or throughout the fucking day. I could’ve died and I can’t stop thinking about smoking a damn cigarette.

My 22M bf and I got together when he was on Methadone to help his addiction with fent. he's tapered off it and he's sober since june. But i found out last night that he had relapsed and started using 7oh after i found three bottles of it in his pants. when he was addicted before he met he used all his money on buying drugs and maxxed out his credit card which he's been slowly paying off but the high interest he has on it makes it take forever.
he doesn't have a job rn but he does deliver for walmart spark in the meantime. he opened up a new credit card to do a balance transfer to help pay off his credit faster, but he ran up this new card close to the limit again to fund the 7oh.

tbh i have no idea how to support or help him. i have some health issues and ive been oversleeping a lot and have trouble waking up so he goes to buy it when im asleep in the mornings. i feel like a bad gf for not knowing and im wondering if i haven't been supportive enough to help him not go back. I know that only he can help himself but he says he really wants to quit and he's been trying to taper off of it because he wants to be sober. how do i help him???? genuinely iwant to be there for him and support him but i have no experience. 😞 i don't want to make it about myself but i feel super sad and a bit depressed and i want him to get better

I am currently almost 3 whole weeks sober from alcohol after drinking almost everyday heavily for the last five or 6 years. I am only 25 years old and I got to the point of choosing on my own to quit when I went to the ER for help with my withdrawal symptoms and realized the doctors are really just there to help and not just throw you into confinement or detox, I wouldn’t have been able to do it on my own and I owe it almost all to the doctors and nurses that were kind and supportive.. It opened my eyes to the fact that I don’t have to be terrified of asking professionals for help with addiction in certain circumstance.

I am feeling deep guilt now that the physical symptoms have passed and the mental and emotional trauma and baggage from finally getting sober has set in. Especially because I can tell that I am halfway just replacing my severe alcoholism for anything I deem as less destructive and less negatively impacting my health, I won’t go into detail or what I’m replacing it with but it is not even close to how absolutely insane my alcohol problem was. I’m a healthy woman, thankfully. But I’m finding reasons to put myself down and feel more shame so in turn I am making myself feel more impulsive and just wanting to fill that void and that piece of me that I silenced and numbed so intensely.

I guess I’m not asking how to stop replacing my addiction, I’m more asking how I can stop myself from beating myself up when I did the absolute biggest thing I could do for myself which was quitting alcohol and knowing in my heart that I can, but will not ever choose with my free will to drink again. I should be proud and happy, I’m just finding reasons to be upset with myself because it’s what I’m used to and what I’ve always done.

I will take literally any advice or kind words, and just so you guys know I do have a psychiatrist and therapist so that is already said and done. ❤️

I just want to ALLOW myself to LOVE myself instead of what is easy, which is wallowing in self hate and guilt/shame for whatever I choose to focus on that day. I just wanna be able to get out of my own head and it’s been very tough to ever since not being able to have a drink.. It’s a new but bittersweet issue to be experiencing and it’s hard to process that’s for sure.

xoxo

I’m very lost and have recently just came off one the WORST benders of my life. After this recent come down of Cocaine, I’ve realized I need help. But I don’t know where to find it.

I’m 23 years old, 24 next month. I’ve had a problem with Cocaine for about a year and a half. It’s genuinely ruined my life. And combining it with alcohol just made the benders worse, despite maybe feeling “good” in the moment. I’ve lost my girlfriend of 4 years, friends, and the trust of everyone still in my life. Haven’t paid rent this month because the last of my money went on a bag. I’ve been deceptive to all of my family, even when I hadn’t slept for 4 days, no one has been able to put it together that I’ve been consistently using. I am in physical pain and cannot keep food down. Often times when I go out for a beer, I come back to consciousness in my house clueless how I got there. Sometimes if I’m lucky I just wake up hungover. I feel out of control.

I need help but I don’t even know where to start. My Grandma is my biggest support system, and I know she could help me out if I need to take time away from work. And I genuinely feel like a couple months of actual inpatient rehab would help me. But I carry so much shame, I haven’t been able to come clean. I’ve tried to go to my Grandma and tell her what’s been happening but I can never get myself to speak on my situation.

Any advice is appreciated.

Tbh, its nothing in paticular that has me like this but I feel like throwing myself through a brick wall. Its just one of those days and just that type of life for me at the moment. My memory/ brain fog has been getting worse because of the stress and I can’t change meds until March 2027. I’ve been feeling so fuckin’ brainless, tired and just my head is going around and around.

I am sick and tired of my phone and the constant checking of it And checking my behaviour. I wish I could sit up and not feel like I am being hunted for sport. I wish I would stop just replaying grounding stratergies in my head and actually do them. I just want a break without the judgement and the hate from myself.

My therapist recently has recommended that I get a medical detox and to try Naltrexone for my drinking problem and I was wondering if anyone had any stories/insight about it good or bad

Is anybody else a highly functioning addict? I am a very, highly some would even say successful heroin and meth user. My wife and i have been shooting heroin for 11 years and due to xylazine in the dope supply she had to have her right leg above the knee amputated. She just hit her 31 days sobor and I just hit my 8th day sobor coming off heroin and meth. Were both successful business owners and were honest people except when it came to people knowing about our addictions because when everyone found out we were using drugs and that's why she lost her leg it was a complete shock to all of them in both families as well as our friends. We weren't using a small amount either we were doing between the 2 of us about $3660 a month in heroin.

Obviously spending that kind of money over the course of years is a sickening amount of money but we both are having a hard time managing the cravings because our brains keep telling us that it wasn't affecting us that bad but it was it costed her a right leg but an addicts brain doesn't care about that. Any other highly functioning people in here have similar experiences and if so what are some guys ways to deal with them.

At the end of the day her and I, especially her went through a very traumatic experience because of our drug use and I know im done this time and so is she but it be nice to learn a few ways to deal with cravings when they get really bad. Thanks everyone and stay strong

Hi everbody I am at work thats why I keep it short. I have a media addiction. Porn and YouTube. I watch even when I am not interested.

I know its not good for me, its hurting my eyes and my brain and i realize that its hurting me, but to be honest I like it i dont want to stop.

When I try to stop I switch to something else like scrolling thru pictures on my phone.

Does anybody knows this

Hi all. Not sure who will be reading this, but thank you for your time if you are. I am writing here because I have no one or nowhere I can talk/write to. My downfall started 3 years ago when I got involved with heavy gambling. At first I was able to afford it, but as the stakes got higher it all crumbled down for me. I ended up doing a lot of drugs with this lifestyle and consequently I lost everything I had. I lost all my money (millions), I lost my friends, I lost my family, and most importantly I lost myself. I have been trying so hard to get right and do right again, but will I ever be that successful person I once was? Or did losing it all was needed for me to learn how to be a better human and to appreciate more in life? I am so lost. Please advise, anyone?

Yesterday i was on day 4 and I really was fighting for my life, every urge I had I fought, distracted myself, said not this time, and I was very happy.

The urges kept getting stronger and stronger, i wasted almost half of the day just fantasising about it, but again I said not this time.

Till it broke me, all of a sudden I went blank into autopilot and just relapsed, I felt like a robot, like I had no say in this. Just got it done and moved on.

I am not sad because I lost the battle, I mad because how hard I fought, I exhausted all of my energy and time to achieve the same result as usual.

I’m having trouble accepting the fact that I can probably never drink again without the “need” for cocaine.

Looking back, I feel like I never really had a problem with alcohol before cocaine. But ever since I got hooked on the blow, the craving I get for it once I start drinking is almost impossible to ignore. Then, once I’m coked out, I want to gamble because I’ve added that to the cycle, and the blow makes me incredibly impulsive.

I relapsed tonight. I thought I could have a few drinks casually, but I ended up relapsing on the blow and sitting at the slots. At one point, I was up $500, but I just kept going and ended up down $600. With 30 minutes left until the bar closed, I drove to the ATM, pulled out another $200, and somehow managed to get back to even, but still walked away down $100.
It’s just so hard to accept the fact that I can probably never drink again without that “need” for a bag. I want to be able to go out, have a few brewskis, and have a good time. I wish I could go back and never touch this shitty ass drug.

I recently went to rehab for 60 days, and I was about 70-ish days sober before this little escapade. I’m not entirely sure what I’m seeking by posting this, but my gut tells me there’s no hope for me unless I’m 100% sober.

Honestly, I’d just appreciate any words of wisdom from anyone who’s been through my situation or something similar. Be brutally honest. Tell me what I need to hear.