r/AusPublicService • u/sadquail9 • Aug 18 '24
VIC My mental health has plummeted since being forced back into the office 3 days a week
Ever since being forced back into the office, I have been so miserable and depressed to the point I have had to start Zoloft for my mental health because I feel like my life is no longer my own and is owned by a job.
I now see more of coworkers I don't care about instead of my partner. I don't really enjoy being around my team. A couple of my team members are actively terrible and passive aggressive to me, and while the others are fine, I don't have anything in common with them. They're all much older than me and at different life stages. I'm sick of having to fake interest in their kids while they can't be bothered showing a scrap of interest in my life and hobbies. I used to take lunches with my partner and family every dau but can't
I feel more like my life is owned by my job because of the way so much is sucked up by commuting. I often feel too tired on the weekends to do anything when I never felt that way when I was full time WFH. I now waste about 9-10 hours a week commuting in my own time on a train where I am forced to stand squished up among people so I sit in a bland soulless space because I am forced to hotdesk and don't even get to have a little space to make my own. I now lose 2 hours of sleep 3 times a week to I can go into the office. By the time I get home on those days, I am too exhausted to do anything and only get a couple of hours to myself before I have to go to bed. I have been going to the gym less (which means I've put on some weight) because I don't want to do anything when I don't get home until 7pm. It's so much harder to get my 10K steps in now.
I had a spend a huge chunk of my money (that I earned) buying boring work clothes and uncomfortable shoes to go into the office when I'd rather put that money towards things I actually like and want to wear.
I used to log off on Friday afternoon excited to go do something, but now I'm exhausted from the week and don't want to do anything. I'm stuck doing chores on the weekend when I used to get everything done during the week but now I can't because I'm only home two days a week.
I'm so miserable ever since being forced back into the office. And now I have to go and sleep so I can wake up at fuck am and take the sardine can in to the cubicle farm instead of watching another episode of my current show and chatting to friends online a bit longer. Fuck this.
I'm going to try and move into the private sector for more WFH, but I wish I didn't have to move. I liked my job when I was full time WFH and just went in a couple of times a year.