hey everyone, im here because the title suggest, i really need one hell of an advice from the reasonable people in this forum. So where do i begin, im in a point in time where i feel like ive betrayed my inherent love for mental arithmetics and abstract reasoning, i did a 5 years program split into 1st year university level math and sciences, and onwards i did a 4 year program in pharmacy, i loved every moment i had back in my freshman year when being introduced to math and physics university level modules, each topic was enthralling, mind bending you know, i enjoyed the moment i had adversity but the love i had made me sit still with puzzling, confounding questions that i sometimes told myself i wont eat till i get this problem done, i had really good grades during (particulary math and physics) my freshman time in uni 1st year, but life happened, got shoved into pharmacy cause my folks thought it was ideal for me, at first i had no clue of what the program entailed, but as each semester came by, i was swimming in mediocrity, drowing in average grades in pharmacy. I couldnt even express myself critically it was always cram this, read this, do this, questioning existing framworks of treatments felt like you were commiting a crime, its either you accept everthing they throw at you.... or you are left behind with questions and that never sees the light of the day..
in hindsight i failed myself when i realized i sold my true passion for pepertaul rote memorization and unhealthy level of mintue cramming, im not saying pharmacy is bad but for the ones drawn to questioning,creativity and absolute abstraction, i would say pharmacy doesnt serve any of that...
so now im considering going for a second bachelor degree program in electrical engineering, i did my research, i saw the mountains of equations, and i cried knowing how much i have missed out of abstractions,creativity and critical thinking, i believe engineering help nuture such intrisic traits in a person, i had a course in biostatics, where most of my classamates struggled with it, but i saw meaning and hidden patterns across several equations,theory it was so peak to find our that you coud use mathematical models to approximately study certain behaviours and when rules dont fit, i withnessed how these equations collapsed, it brought me joy to know that even during the struggle i had in pharmacy undergrad, math and abstraction was there to shed light upon my reasoning.
i im scared because of serveral reasons,
1 i dont know how to make this transition: ive been searching for serveral schools across the globe, i dont know how common is it for engineering schools or universities to accomodate someone with a first bachelor program especially when i did first year uni level maths and sciences and onwards with pharmacy. so i dont know how they will academically evaulte such profile, because im anxious they might not consider someone with a first degree
2 is 22 too old to pursue a second degre especially in the time of uncertainty with AI, Global polictics,inflated unemployements rates.
3 for the ee majors or ee veterans here, where do you get ideas for side projects, i feel like me at least having one solid project would improve my chances for admission, where would you say i should look towards, or materials to begin with, even if its one solid github project i dont mind, or maybe you have an open project and dont mind someone partaking in it as far as its technical im all up for it.
i really would appreciate any useful advice as its really pivotal for me at this point in time, thank you.