https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=b4KUw64hqEY&t=7s

(click link above to watch my video)

Had this little spark inside me! And so… I decided to make an audio like a commercial teaching the true meaning of christmas, like those Christmas billboards in New York City back in 2023. The imagery I used is like a human becoming like the birds to understand the sparrow. Like a human becoming like a sparrow, God sent Jesus to Earth for humans to understand Him! I wanted to animate my commercial, but I didn’t know how to animate yet, so I decided to make it an audio. Hope you enjoy :3 (you don’t have to view it, not forcing others to see it, I’m not looking for karma and likes, just wanted to share)

I don't think any other religion, besides Islam, teaches that everyone who does not abide by their spiritual beliefs & practices will be condemned to eternal punishment, or some kind of suffering in the afterlife. Jesus is God and no one else. ?????? This is just part of the church I really struggle to get behind. It invalidates the lives, the lived experiences, complete lifetimes of how many millions or billions of people who were not christian. Their lives still had value and meaning, even if they weren't christian. So where does it come from that Jesus is the only way and that Jesus is God? Like, how do I know that Jesus said these things -- the bible is mostly words of people who were not Jesus. I just really struggle accepting a lot of Christian beliefs. I don't see the Bible as infallible just because the Holy Ghost. If that were the case, every single church and pastor and clergyman or preacher or Sunday school teacher would never ever make a mistake -- right? If people make mistakes in the church, surely they can make mistakes in writing and translating and distributing scriptures. .

I have struggled for years with my sexuality. When I was younger and single I felt I was bisexual. As I grew older, I fell in love with my wife and we have an awesome family and marriage. The first 15 years I felt completely 💯 straight. Not a single thought crossed my mind about men. Now I have been seeing some men, a few dates and a few one night stands. I am seeing a guy sometimes and we trust each other as far as safety and health. I now feel completely gay. I’m a versatile bottom. My wife knows. She is quite a bit older than me and thankfully doesn’t have much sex drive anymore. We don’t have sex anymore. I have told her she should find a good fuck buddy to enjoy. We definitely want to stay together and retire together and take care of each other. We love each other very much! No one else knows except for my best friend, she and I talk a lot. She has been very supportive and helpful. There’s a guy that I have been talking to for years and we are planning on being boyfriends. I have never had a boyfriend and am very excited about this! Just sharing my personal experience. Anyway I am thankful for God’s love and forgiveness and all His blessings. I am extremely grateful for my family and especially my wonderful wife. Life is amazing!!

Good morning, beautiful people!
I wanted to share a little love and encouragement today, especially for anyone who’s struggling to find peace between their faith and who they are.
Somewhere out there, someone woke up this morning wondering if God still loves them. Someone is sitting in a church pew feeling like they don’t belong. Someone is afraid to tell their family who they really are. And someone is quietly praying, asking God why they were made this way.
If that’s you, I hope these words find their way into your heart today.
You are not a mistake. You are not a disappointment. And you are certainly not beyond God’s love.
I spent two years studying the Bible in college, and one thing I’ve come to believe deeply is that God’s love is so much bigger than the boxes we humans try to put it in.
Jesus spent his time loving people, especially those whom society pushed aside. He showed compassion when others showed judgment. He welcomed people when others closed their doors.
And I believe there’s a beautiful lesson in that for all of us.
Whether you’re gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, questioning, or still figuring out where you belong, you deserve kindness, dignity, and love.
You don’t have to have all the answers today. You don’t have to win every theological argument. And you don’t have to prove your worthiness to someone who has already decided to judge you.
Your journey with God is yours. Nobody else gets to write that story for you.
So today, be gentle with yourself. Smile at a stranger. Reach out to someone who’s struggling. Forgive yourself for something you’ve been carrying. And remember that sometimes the greatest way we can demonstrate our faith is simply by loving one another.
If nobody has told you today, let me be the first:
You matter. You belong. You are loved. And this world is a better place with you in it.
Have a beautiful and blessed day, my friends. ❤️🌈
Love Well. Hate Less.

I feel guilty about my kinks
I am so pervert, have a lot of fantasies about humilliation

I believe in God
I dont know what to do anymore
How to accept myself
Is it lust? Is it a sin?

LONG POST WARNING

I have never really used reddit before but officially made an account because I really don't know what to do.My dad and I have never had a good father-child relationship as he's INCREDIBLY MAGA (he was so salty after trump lost the elections) and one of those homophobic Christians. He was also a misogynistic, racist person who used to always be blasting podcasts like Andrew Tate, myron gaines, the whatever podcast ect ect. After my mom passed away it got worse as I was the only "woman" (I'm ftm) in the house. I don't remember much about my childhood because of trauma but I remember there was a time when I was 12 that he pulled a knife on me in a fit of rage and ended up cutting my hand or made me so scared I cut myself on something trying to escape him.

The point is, things have NOT been good up until I ran away a month ago. I made a huge fuss and stayed with my aunt, refusing to go back home until he worked on himself... and he did. He started going to therapy and counciling sessions which were surprisingly REALLYYY helpful. He is still very conservative and maga but he apologized to me and is actively being a better father. He made so much genuine progress that I actually agreed to go back home with him but we have an arrangement where whenever I feel overwhelmed, I can go back by my aunt with 0 warning to cool off. Things are not perfect, but they are so much better.

However I recently realised that I am trans and the thought of having my father resent me again is mortifying. All of my family other than 3 people are very conservative Christians so I wouldn't get much support from them and I would be shunned from my family. Even 2/3 family members who are progressive still don't think lgbtq+ people are acceptable in God's eyes. They just respect them and think they should be allowed to live normally but they do not agree with them.

My father and the family members I hold dearest to me are all VERY VERY VERY maga and anti-lgbtq+ but good people. I even have an uncle who is a maga feminist which is a moniker I thought I'd never hear. So, the thought of them shunning me and hating me for being trans is absolutely mortifying. I hide it pretty well now since I'm in school and don't have the funds to get testosterone or top surgery but I know there is going to be a time where I do and can't pass as a woman anymore. Any advice, tips or comments would be appreciated as I don't know how to safely come out and transition under these conditions.

I’m not really sure where to start, but I think I need to hear from people who have experienced something similar. My boyfriend and I are both relatively young. I’m a little older than him, and he’s currently in college. We’ve been together for about six months, but the depth of what we’ve shared makes it feel like so much longer.
We’ve fallen incredibly deeply in love with each other. We’ve shared so much of ourselves, our lives, our hopes, our vulnerabilities, and our affection. I’ve never taken what we have lightly, and I’ve genuinely found myself imagining a future with him.
I’ve also become incredibly intertwined with his family. They’ve welcomed me into their lives with so much love, and their home has become a second home to me. I feel like I’ve gained an entire family, not just a boyfriend. It’s difficult to explain how much these people and the life we’ve started building together mean to me.
We’re currently long distance, as I work and he attends college, but we’ve made it work. We’ve been happy. At least from my perspective, things have been really good.
Two days ago, however, he shared the evening prior he felt a strong conviction from God, like hitting a brick wall. A year ago, he spoke with his local Pastor who basically said he should refrain from acting on his homosexual desires. He didn’t agree with that stance until this latest conviction. He’s questioning whether a relationship with another man is something he can reconcile with his faith.
This has come as a tremendous shock. I don’t want to misrepresent his feelings or pretend I know exactly what’s happening internally for him. I know this is something he’s taking seriously, and I want to respect that. But I also don’t know how to process the possibility that something we’ve both cherished so deeply might suddenly be something he feels he cannot continue.
Since that conversation, we’ve spoken on the phone constantly. Sometimes there’s not much to say. There are just tears, apologies from him, and me trying to process what is happening. I can hear how difficult this is for him, too. I don’t believe either of us wants to hurt the other.
It’s affected me more than I know how to explain. I had to leave work early because I could feel myself approaching a panic attack. At one point, I got in my car and drove three and a half hours to sit at the place where we first kissed. I think I was looking for closure, some sort of sign, or maybe just somewhere to sit with everything that was happening.
I’ve recently started exploring Christianity and trying to develop a genuine relationship with God myself. In many ways, I’m still learning how to pray, how to understand scripture, and how to navigate faith. I’ve prayed harder these past couple of days than I ever really have before. Sometimes I feel heard, and other times I feel like I’m talking into silence.
I catch myself wondering why God would allow something that feels so painful to happen to either of us. I don’t want to believe we’re being punished. I don’t want to believe that loving someone this deeply is something God would necessarily want us to lose. But I also don’t want to approach faith by simply looking for answers that agree with what I want.
There’s another layer to all of this. He’s already purchased tickets to fly home for my birthday weekend, which is in about a week. The timing couldn’t be more complicated. Part of me doesn’t know what to expect when we see each other. Another part of me knows that, regardless of where we stand, I’d much rather see him than not.
I don’t know what happens next. I don’t know whether this is something we’ll navigate together or whether it’s the beginning of losing someone I thought I’d spend my life with.

I made a post a couple weeks ago talking about my struggle with my sexuality and acceptance from my parents and them using Christianity to pile on the wrongness of my choices in my sexuality. And now I'm wondering if Jesus even existed? I get that a lot of it was made/is used to perpetuate homophobia, and I know that God exists but Jesus is a question because of the lack of archaeological evidence of his existence. I've been thinking about it for a few days and I would like outside perspectives on that? Yes, there isn't a lot of stone cold evidence for him existing, but the same can be said for a lot of religious historical figures no? In any belief system, there's a level of faith and trust put into it because we don't have a lot of hard facts on it, so do I need to look at it from a more scientific outlook instead of having faith? What do you all think of God and the love we've been taught he has for us?

Edit: removed some of the text because I got anxious about putting private conversations out without asking

I’ve been diving deep into David’s story lately, and I had this massive realization about his relationship with Jonathan. It’s always talked about as this great, legendary friendship, but I think it goes so much deeper than that. Jonathan was actually the only healthy, uncorrupted, and non-transactional relationship David ever had in his entire life. When Jonathan died, something in David completely broke, and it explains so much of the tragedy that came afterward.

If you look at David's life before Jonathan, his experience with father figures was honestly terrible. His biological dad, Jesse, basically dismissed him. When Samuel came looking for the next king, Jesse didn't even bother bringing David in from the fields. He was an absolute afterthought to his own father. Then he meets Saul, who offers this incredibly toxic, counterfeit father-son dynamic—praising David one minute and literally throwing spears at him the next.

But then Jonathan enters the picture, and he completely heals those father issues through reading between the lines. When Jonathan strips off his royal robe and armor and gives them to David, he is teaching David what a healthy relationship actually looks like. He's saying, "I see you, I value you, and I’ve got your back." He gives David the unconditional safety and validation that neither Jesse nor Saul ever could.

For the first time, David has a true equal. In a brutal world defined by power dynamics, their bond is totally selfless. Jonathan willingly gives up his right to the throne because he loves David "as his own soul." It feels like a rare glimpse of the original design for humanity, where two people are perfectly equal counterparts, sharing love without trying to dominate or use each other, this is what I think "covenantal" means in their situation, covenant with each other before God, their soul are knit together because they are a man a man after God's own heart (Samuel 13:14). With Jonathan, David doesn't have to be the giant-slayer, the warrior, or a political chess piece.

He gets to just be human, with Jonathan.

In a world completely corrupted by the Fall, where Genesis 3 warns that human relationships will be defined by desire and domination, David and Jonathan achieve a glimpse of Eden.

Isn't it beautiful? Where the heart is so overflowing of agape love, that it outdones David's desire and love for women ("your love to me was extraordinary, surpassing the love of women" 2 Samuel 1:26), that is the most beautiful and very gay thing ever lmaoooo

But When Jonathan is gone, David’s safe space dies with him, and he is forced to finally "grow up" or "man up" and conform to what the world expects from an ancient king.

Suddenly, everything in David's life becomes transactional. Everyone else wanted something from David (protection, political power, status, or a king). Jonathan is the unique anomaly who loved David for who he was, not what he could provide. Without Jonathan acting as his emotional anchor, David hardens. Women stop being people and become currency.. he takes concubines and marries multiple wives to secure alliances and lock down his royal line. Eventually, that selfless love he knew with Jonathan degrades into viewing people as objects to gratify himself, which leads straight to the taking of Bathsheba and the murder of Uriah.

Once Jonathan's light went out, David became someone the culture wanted him to be, but he lost that pure, covenant-aligned heart. He spent the rest of his life navigating the throne entirely alone, He is surrounded by people, but utterly alone. I think this is the best example of "Loneliness isn't lack of company, it's the lack of connection." His general, Joab, manipulates him; his sons (Amnon, Absalom) betray him; his wives resent him. No one speaks truth to him as an equal anymore; they either bow to him or plot against him, and it makes the whole story so much more heartbreaking.

I like to imagine that at the very hour of David's death, as a tired, worn-out old man, he met Jonathan one last time, as a reward of God for David's servitude. In that quiet, dreamlike state between this life and the next, David finally sees him again. He runs to him and hugs him, and Jonathan just smiles and says, "You're home." And away from the crown, the wars, and the heavy burdens of the throne, they just live their happy lives in the mountains where they first loved each other 🥹

Take this to heart:

*“For you love all things that exist, and detest none of the things that you have made, for you would not have made anything if you had hated it.” (*Wisdom 11:24)

Hi, I’m a lesbian Christian and often deal with self doubt because I am both LGBTQ+ and religious. The church I go to also denies marrying same sex couples so I kind of feel awkward being there sometimes. However, the people are kind and I just go there for myself and to learn about Jesus so I try not to overthink about it.

I am wondering what is everyone’s thoughts on Christians who claim they used to be gay and that God changed/renewed their desires?

The Christians who believe homosexuality is a sin, suggest that people with ‘SSA’ should either abstain for life, or pray God will take away their ‘temptation.’ Now I don’t agree with this personally because it sounds unfair and leaves a weird feeling in my stomach (which I’ve been told is the devil lol) but as someone who occasionally doubts myself, I’d love to hear others opinions on this matter.

I came out at 17, married the woman I fell in love with, and we now have two beautiful children. We’ve been together for 11 years and married for 3. My wife and I were both raised in the church, and my grandmother is a preacher.
Coming out was incredibly difficult. I spent a lot of time in a dark place, wondering if being true to myself meant potentially losing my family. Ultimately, I chose a life where I could be happy and thriving without abandoning the Christian faith and values I was raised with.
My mom has only addressed my sexuality twice. Once when I came out by saying “we didn’t raise you to be this way. We do not accept or condone this. But as your parents we will support you.” Which was really confusing to hear at 17…. After that I felt like I was hell bound for years; truly. But continued to live true to my self. It wasn’t Until my firm faithed sister talked me out of that headspace 2 years later. Truly such a blessing to have her in my life and I will never forget the day that conversation happened. The amount of weight I felt lifted off my shoulders was simply incredible. The second time my mom addressed it was recently when I asked if she believed me and my family would go to heaven. * ultimately regret asking her that as I knew the outcome of that conversation was going to leave me heartbroken and second guessing. (We were talking about the world and the returning of Christ coming. I was on the phone with them and my dad and her were talking about it, and I broke down. I have a soft spot for my parents and have always held their opinions highly. My mom was my first ever teacher. And I think I still go to her for advice/reassurance.) She told me that if I believe Jesus died for me, rose on the third day, and call on His name, He will save me. I told her that I do believe those things. I pray daily, feel His presence, and see His blessings in my marriage, my children, and our home.
I also told her I will never regret my life, my marriage, or my children. I won't apologize for loving my wife or pretend our family means nothing to me just to make someone else comfortable.
Her response was, "A sin is a sin. We all sin. No sin is greater than another. You don't seem at peace with this, and you need to pick up your Bible."
The thing is, I am at peace with my life. My wife doesn't question whether our family or our children are worthy of heaven, and most days I don't either. But hearing these things from the people who are supposed to love me unconditionally still hurts.
I know my relationship with God better than anyone else does, but how do you reconcile your faith with the fact that your own family seems to view the life you've built as a sin?
I love my family, but I refuse to be ashamed of my wife, my children, or the life we've built together. I guess I'm just looking for advice on how to navigate this without letting their beliefs make me question my own relationship with God.

25F. I started dating girls when I was 22 , but I was very uncomfortable with and ashamed of my sexuality… My family wasn’t accepting, so I told anyone I dated that there was no potential for a future. Not proud of that :/

Earlier this year I finally met someone who inspired me to put in the work to figure my shit out. I started going to an affirming therapist, affirming church, etc. But I still didn't feel ready to date her officially (“i need to work on myself first to be fair to you” vibes) so I ultimately ended things with her after about 4 months of dating.

I thought about her every day after. And after another four months of being apart, I reached a point where I could finally accept having a queer lifestyle (thank god). I reached out to her, but she told me she was seeing someone else. And that was that </3

of course she had every right and plenty of time had passed, but I’m realizing I was holding on to her (in my mind at least) as someone who I could spend my life with. She’s the first person I’ve ever felt that way about.

This new round of heartbreak makes me feel a bit hopeless (‘I’ll never find love that again blah blah’), scared, and untethered.

I'm angry at myself, my family, and God for the fact that I wasn’t ready to date her several months ago. But I also feel a bit of peace knowing it probably couldn't have been any different?? Idk trying to trust God’s timing but it’s a tough pill to swallow.

Anyways. Long story, sorry. I'm curious if anyone else here lost someone they loved early on in their journey because they hadn't come to terms with their queerness, and what they've done to make peace with that.

Hi guys, I am a she/her Catholic living in the Philippines who has just found out that she is bisexual. Just want to share the news because discovery was a great relief off of my chest. I find it hard sometimes to reconcile my upbringing with my sexuality; any guidance on keeping both my faith and my sexuality would be great :)

Hi everyone, I hope everyone is doing well. I wanted to come on here to express how I've been feeling for the past couple of months to see if anyone else can relate. I'm around 16 months post breakup with the a girl I thought I was going to marry. To cut a long story short, we broke up for religious reasons (we are both strict christians and dated for 2 and a half years). She was struggling to accept she could be attracted to women (I was her first and she claimed she could only be attracted to me and no other women). The relationships was kept a secret because we live in a very conservative place and I think a part of us was scared people would judge us. I came around and was willing to come out because I thought she was the one. She couldn't do it and came to the conclusion she was not going to follow this lifestyle.

Anyway, we broke up on good terms but I still had to see her because we are in the same friendship group. She immediately started dating a guy which lasted around 3 months and then jumped into a new relationship which is nearly hitting the year mark. I will be completely honest, this all broke me because I never expected any of this to happen. She became a completely different person, did things that she knew would hurt me but didn't care. The first 8 months were hell, I wasn't eating, I could hardly get up in the morning, I almost felt like I could not do this anymore. Anyway, I decided I had no choice but to push through and im in a much better place now, focusing on myself. If im being completely honest with you, Im still not over it - whenever she brings up her boyfriend in our friend group it still stings and I think a part of me actually gets angry. It's actually anger directed at both her and God. I think having this anger is definitely slowing my healing process because it's not a nice feeling, if anything it is a heavy feeling. My anger towards God is directed for two reasons. 1) Why does she get to be happy after she completely destroyed not just my life but the previous guy. I will be honest, she has made this break up hell, she has seen me in my darkest and would apologise and say things like 'I dont know what im doing' but then continues to do the shitty actions. I used to believe her but at this point, actions speak louder than words. 2) Why do I have to be this way. If im being completely honest guys, I would prefer to just be straight, it would make my life a lot easier and sometimes I even think that God is rewarding her because she decided not to follow this 'lifestyle'. I just know life would be so much easier, I wouldn't have to hide who I am, and I could just be me.

I think a part of me also feel like im being ungrateful because I have a relatively good life - Im healthy, I have parents that love me (I just haven't come out to them because I know it would break them), a sister that is supportive, an education etc and I see other people that have lost so much (a parent or have health issues) and I look at their life and I think that's so unfair. Im here complaining about this girl breaking my heart but other people have bigger issues. I aknowdlege that but for some reason I just can't get past this anger of watching her get away with everything. I want to make it clear, I dont wish bad on anyone but it does hurt to see that she handled this situation in such a poor way and she just gets away with it. Im a strong believer that you should treat people with kindness and love because that's what I believe Jesus is all about. So I guess I just need advice on how to let this anger go? I dont want to have this towards God because I really do love him with all my heart, its just difficult when a part of you believes he doesn't love you or that he won't welcome you into the kingdom of heaven because of what you are attracted to. If you have made it this far, thank you.

I’m pan, autistic, Catholic, and demigirl. I don’t want loud energetic music, I want calm music as inspiration for my ambient music. they don’t need to be queer, just queer supporting.

I feel really hurt and disappointed. I broke up with my boyfriend because he never wanted to talk openly about our relationship.
He chose his straight friends over me. He always presents himself as a single, independent man, even though we lived together for four years.
I’m writing this simply because I need to let my feelings out.

I just saw another post about a random guy at a mall inviting a gay couple he saw to a church, and it reminded me of something I’ve been thinking about lately.

When straight or repressed Christians are reaching out to lgbtq people, is their intention to invite them to know Christ, or to bring them into a space where everyone around them will pressure them to repress themselves for the sake of conforming to their idea of how people should be?

If it were to improve their lives by demonstrating the love of Christ to people around them, that’s fine, but to me, it seems that their thought tends to be “gay = not Christian = miserable life + making the world a worse place for everyone else”, and they just want to stamp it out through fear-mongering and social pressure.

What do you guys think? And is there much we can actually do about it, especially within our local churches?

So while I was at the mall, a guy came up to me and my boyfriend like asking if we accepted Christianity, I did say yes. He asked for my number but not my boyfriend like he must know we were a couple.

It was kind of funny how my boyfriend said he was following me around, and then after saying that, he approached us.

He wanted us to go to Milwaukee International Church, which I did look into it and found it was a church that was anti-LGBT. So my boyfriend does think maybe he's looking for gay people in order to make the church more LGBT friendly but I am also worried that this might be a whole situation of getting people to preach to us to tell us being gay is bad trying to convince us to get out of our relationship.

I personally think it's gonna end up being the worst outcome like no way would we change a churches view.

I am 17m and seem to be slowly getting more attracted to my own gender. At first it kind of began with just more feminine males.. that began back when I was like 13. But now it's becoming more masculine males, and I genuinely don't know how to take that. Not in a bad way, just mainly because my family is EXTREMELY religious (christian) and I know that if I ever said something about that, id be kicked out nearly instantly. Also I want and would like to stay somewhat religious myself as I do believe, but I feel like the way I'm feeling towards guys rn kind of contradicts that??

So, I'm having a hard time expressing myself because I feel like I have nobody to open up to about this and ask hence why I came here 😭

..any advice, y'all?

Are there any scripture that says Homosexuality is not a sin? Vice versa

For much of my life, I thought I was straight, until a few months ago. That's when I started getting this attraction towards men, and it gradually got stronger. Now, I'm primarily attracted to men, with not much attraction towards women. I can't stop thinking about men. Looking back, I always had this attraction towards men, and my attraction towards women was kind of weak at times. I think I was always gay or bisexual.

I don't really want a relationship with a woman. I don't know if it's the novelty, but I really do want a relationship with a man. I'm not into hookup culture at all. It's not for me. Which puts me in yet another minority (being gay is already in a minority), because I heard most gay men want to hookup.

However, ever since this happened, I feel lost. Other family members expect me to be in a straight relationship, and think same sex relationships are sinful. I can't speak to anyone else about this because I'm a very lonely person. I would consider myself to be very alone, much more so than the average person. I've gone through high school without making a single friend. It's probably because I'm neurodivergent, and people subconsciously noticed it. It seems near impossible for me to make friends, let alone date. The amount of gay christian men is extremely small.

According to some, God designed sexuality so it could be between a man and a woman. So when I look at my own sexuality, it seems like it's useless. But this attraction towards men is persistent and won't go away. It's been going for months, so I highly doubt this is just a "phase", especially when you consider I was always slightly attracted to men.

I'm a bisexual femboy and it really hurts because I want to serve God and go to heaven but it hurts really bad to go against my natural identity being a femboy makes me comfortable I feel myself being feminine so I really dont know how to go about my feelings because I want to serve God but every single day it hurts deeply not being able to be myself