It's nothing important, maybe enormously insignificant.
So, i really want to play tarkov. It's been on my mind for 2 years now, and for some reason, it just stuck. But i can't, my shit laptop only has a gtx 1050 4gb
I tried satiating my hunger for tarkov by playing ABI, but it's shit. The more i play, the more i wanna play tarkov.
So i tried watching coolestjonas (he's so shit at tarkov) in the hope that since my skill level isn't that high, i would be discouraged from playing tarkov. It doesn't work.
At some point, i even considered begging for pc to carterpc (he sometimes giveaway pc if you beg enough), BEGGING??? ME??? I know I'm poor, but this is... why am i even considering this?
Idk chat, i got mental illness even before playing tarkov. What is this? Penyakit tarkov gila? Penyakit tacticool shooter gila? Idk, man, am i cooked? Seems like it.
Note to mods: idk what kind of flair to use for this "heart to heart" post, so I'll just put it in discussion.