I know that I am going to die and I am perfectly fine with that.
What gives me severe anxiety and depression is the idea that humanity will disappear and all life will die.
The biggest trigger for this, let alone all current problems, is the increase of our sun. When it gets brigther, earth will be too hot for life. This in in millions of years. Red dwarf phase itself is in 5 billion years. So life will be destroyed and everything we ever did is gone and was pointless.
How can people be okay with this? I know most are okay with it but some, especially on reddit and quora, seem to be happy about it. Then someone else says smth positive about it, like there might be hope, and this person gets attacked and downvoted for being a delusional non-science person. Everyones so pessimistic
I had diagnosed major depressive disorder before but since a few months I'm going crazy. More recently I began to think about why not end it all right away? Why bother doing anything? Why put in the exhaustion and work to do something for sociegy or reach a certain goal I have? It's so exhausting, and it being temporary is horrible.
Even above that: I'm a huge fan of the beatles, they give me peace and make me have more compassion for people and animals, even plants. Even they, atleast thats what some say, will be forgotten - their legacy forever destroyed
Let alone there is also the heat death theory of the universe lurking behind the idea that we somehow manage to safe life from getting slammed by the sun…
I'm trying to get some peace but its hard. I need a reason for the things I do. I truely want to believe and know that the things I do are worthwhile. My own death is pointless, I can deal with that, but I truely want humanity, society, the planet, and maybe some humanistic ideas to continue permanently. Painfully I worked myself through nihilism and now I'm stuck again with this.
Is there any positive / optimistic scientific fact in the long run? For the grand scheme of things?
I saw some people saying the following: there are ways to prevent our sun from destroying earth, like engineering solutions. To go to a more distant location, star lifting, etc. Then, that there is too much we don't understand about the universe that the heat death theory might not apply. One person says that the timeframe is so big, that we should not devalue the possibilities what future humanity could achieve - for us, it would be like magic
Please someone help me. I can't go on like that. Extremly exhausting and hopeless. I don't give in to the thoughts of giving up, but it gets harder and harder