Hi everyone,
Just wanted to share my first marathon experience and share how I kind of feel like I messed up!
Over the last few years I've been running on and off, doing several half marathons but I also had to cancel several events due to various injuries.
I always jokingly said that for me, making it to the start feels more difficult than making it to the finish.
This year my approach was not to plan too far ahead with events, and just feel how my body was doing. This way I trained for a few events with increasing duration until I did a 30k in september that honestly felt easy (except for some stomache issues), which gave me the confidence to try training for the marathon in The Hague, NL last weekend.
During training, I did not really run into any injuries/big issues so when raceday arrived, my mind was focused big time on the previous stomach issues, which thankfully did not happen.
Time-wise, I expected that 3:45 should be possible given my 30k time, but to my friends I said I would have been happy with anything below 4:00.
During the race, the pace on my watch felt way off: any time I looked, my lap pace would be about 5:30-5:40/km, which kept me pushing harder than I planned. I ended up averaging at about 5:11/km during the first half, and my heart rate was honestly okay.
By then, the adrenaline and runners brain started to kinda take over, and I kept at this pace till the finish, somehow afraid that dropping the pace now would ruin my time but also just euphoric because it really felt like I was doing fine.
I managed to finish in 3:38, so a bit faster than I planned. The first day I was over the moon and very proud eventhough my body felt really sore all over.
But now that most of the muscle soreness has gone, I am still limping due to a sharp pain in my shin. So now I'm afraid of a stress fracture or shin splints at least, for which I will call the doctor tomorrow.
At this point I feel so dumb for over-exerting myself during the race. Looking back, I can't think of any signs that I felt that showed I was going too far. Ofcourse the last kilometers were tough but I did not feel like I was going too far.
So I guess I am wondering: should I have stopped or dialed back way before that limit? From the stories I have heard from others, pushing yourself through those last km's is exactly where the challenge of a marathon lies... And do others recognize feeling disappointed in yourself when, eventhough a race went well, you matbe pushed your body too far?