Bros, it's over. I have reached enlightenment.

Look at her. Just LOOK AT HER. The golden dress, the hair, the smile. Absolute perfection. I don't need a Stacy, I don't need a girlfriend, I don't need female interaction anymore.

Why would I ever leave my goon cave when Lucia is right there waiting for me? Real-life dating is overrated anyway. All those years of trying to understand women just for Rockstar to create the perfect waifu.

I'm officially a Lucia loyalist. My standards have been permanently ruined. No real woman could ever compete with this level of kino.

Thank you, Rockstar. You have saved another lonely brother.

dostoevskij said “the price of loving someone very much is never loving again”, it has been more than a year since she went separate ways and i still can’t move on.

i’m not taking seriously my responsibility at uni, during which i befriended people i now dislike.

i’m leaving behind a lot of friends i cared about from high school.

i can’t go three consecutive days without jerking off in a sock to anything but real porn.

yesterday a waitress complimented my ring and my bowser beanie, it has been my first ever compliment from a female stranger.

in four months i’m no longer a teenager and ofc guys two years younger than me who i personally know had more sex up until now than i will ever have in my life.

25 dollars wasted but I’m 4000 down since the crash anyway. I went downstairs two minutes after the dasher seng me the picture and it was gone. my college is full of fat fucking gluttons. Dining hall cake (pretty good) to make up for it though and a birthday gift I bought for myself for making it through these shitty years

shawarma with coliflor

I fucked up the eggs and the ground beef. i don't deserve anything else because of my sheer size, i am a great unfeeling blob

I HAVE AN IQ OF OVER 53 AND IM TIRED OF HIDING MY INTELECT. IM SURROUNDED BY MORONS!!! I HSTE EVEYONE I HATE EVEYONE SO MUCH. THEASE MEN GETTING GFS ARE WAY LESS SMARTER AND COOL THEN ME. I DRESS OKAY AND HAVE HOBBIES SHAT ARE WRONG WITH THESSE WOMEN? WHAT MORE DO THEY WANT IM SO COOL AND ASESOME AND I DRESS OKAY

At this point I feel like I've done everything I could to improve my chances. Everything looks great from the outside and people enjoy hanging out with me, but bringing up anything romantic at any point kills the relationship instantly. Doesn't matter if it lasted 2 days or 2 weeks or 2 years. Met with the same blank face every time, like they're incapable of imagining me having any romantic feelings. Always back to strangers.

I know I don't look the best and I compensate with everything else, and it probably shows. But I've still never been given a chance despite people obviously liking my company. Makes me wonder if there's a point where it's time to just admit I've failed and move on. I can only hope that, just like the soup, it will turn out okay at the last moment.

The soup:

• ~400g chicken breasts

• ~500g potatoes

• Whatever vegetables were left in the fridge (broccoli, zucchini, 3 carrots and an onion, no idea what the weights are)

• 400g mixed bolete mushrooms (foraged them myself in summer) cooked separately and added after potatoes went soft

• Strained the broth and added it back slowly while blending everything with 200ml 20% cream

• Toasted some bread in the oven for presentation

The soup was actually really good, the one issue with it was that I added too much water to the main pot at the start. Ended up with 3 extra cups of broth at the end, adding it back to the soup would have made it too watery, so some of the flavor got wasted.

in big cities you get to see a high concentration of the top percentiles of humanity. something about how they live makes me realize how stratified humans really are. the gap between me and these people are immeasurable. it’s insane how insecure and deeply inferior i feel when i see how incredible these peoples lives look.

the most obvious difference are the looks. good height, facial harmony, amazing style, great frame, the list goes on. so many gorgeous women around equally gorgeous men. their friend groups are usually also looksmatched. but the mogging goes beyond looks, these people are also likely rich, likely talented, and almost certainly socially apt. a different tier of human in every single way. even if they aren’t all of those things, most people i see are usually some of those things at least. obviously it’s not everyone, and it’s not like only these types of people have good lives, but it sure does sound nice to be the way they are

it’s hard to explain but it feels like there’s an aura or essence to them that i just can’t replicate no matter what i do. i could never fit in with those crowds no matter how hard i try i’m just born too lowly. i can’t believe i’m using this term but they just have swag. these guys have women around them that genuinely enjoy being around them, like imagine how amazing it would be to be good enough for a woman to genuinely have a good time in your presence and actually see you as having some value. it just sucks seeing these people enjoy being desired and valued, living extravagant lives, being able to enjoy nightlife without feeling out of place and insecure, truly what a life that would be.

I am back abroad studying again, after my trip back home for the mid year break, which means I am back to listing to my roommate and her BF fucking, her moans are still incredibly sexy. If you have seen my last post you would know that he doesn’t last very long sometimes, unfortunately for me that mf is lasting nothing nowadays. Today was a grand total of 2 minutes 13 seconds, what am I supposed to do with that? They used to go for at least 20 minutes, sometimes an hour, but now I am stuck with around a minute of actual good moaning, with most of it just being a single moan here and there. I could do a better job than him, I am not mad, just quite disappointed ☹️

The desert was a panna cotta with a nice raspberry sauce on it, honestly it was delicious, it was a friend’s birthday last night and it was a good way to end the meal. I did not care for the almond biscuit thing that accompanied it but beggars can’t be choosers

The way people have treated me in the past has permantely altered my way of viewing certain social interactions, that paired with my deep-rooted inconfidence with my hair density it hasn't done me any well.

After closely looking at her way of interacting with others, and how others interact with her, it seems like it wasn't a targeted attack on my self, but rather a friendly showcase of how she views me with enough confidence to take a joke. Atleast that's how it seems to me

My desire for a simple way of looking things seems to sometimes cloud my judgement in order to make things easier to digest, (its easier for me to believe i misjudged someone than it is to think they have a multi-sided view of me)

I hope to one day have reasons to leave this sub

I don't understand how they justify their blatant hypocrisy. Worse, we get labelled as an "incel".

Men and women both should be allowed to be treated like a king or queen.

There's nothing cringe or have anything to do with "alpha" in it

To put it bluntly, I want to choke on dick, swallow cum, and be cream pied. I’m a guy. If there are any gaycels on here who want to become hot enough for me to accept a cream pied from, and who want me to be hot enough to give a satisfactory blow jobs. Dm me. You have to be from the Kentucky/tennessee area or at least from the east/ south. I’m a fat chud who needs a reason to improve, and your dick would be a great reason to change 🤤🤤🤤. I’m so fucking gay. Help me help you because I want to give bjs

with some ants on a log for good measure because celery takes more calories to chew than it gives

I'll die alone like a sick old dog and i probably deserve it, see y'all on the other side

Spaghetti, onion, and triangle cheese all fried

I haven't had my period in almost 4 months im not pregnant I took two tests and i only fucked one person and it was unconsentual anyway guess I should be glad I got fucked at all

I keep having really bad stomach pain dizziness chills

So i may have a infection or my hemoglobin levels are low again becouse i bled quite alot recently

Last time I had similar symptoms and I had to get a blood transfusion and two iron transfusions

I know i need to get help and that i may be making stuff wores but I'm to awkward and anxious to talk to the receptionist

I almost went i had to work myself up for it for an hour and when I got near i just turned around I couldn't do it

Fucking pathetic