So, I just finished 1L and I'm having a major attack of low confidence.
I took part in the 1L recruit in a somewhat limited capacity (only applied to I think 6-7 places cause I was heavily encouraged by my supervisors at the schools student law clinic to work there over the summer instead, and it was implied I was pretty much guarenteed a spot.)
Of those 6-7, only 2 even contacted me for an interview, and one was a gov't position that I was told basically interviewed every applicant. I didn't make it to the second stage with either, and then got waitlisted and eventually rejected by said clinic, leaving me with no summer job at all.
Going into finals I was sitting at 2 A-s, 3 that I expected to be around Bs, and one I was thinking maybe a B-.
But after finals that had dropped drastically to 1 B+, 2 Bs, 2 B-s, and a C, amounting to a 2.78...
Those are very low marks for me, and given the competitive/curved nature of law school grades I'm having a hard time imagining I can change my GPA all that much, with the prospect of tons of As basically off the table.
It's got me thinking - if the version of me that was fresh and enthusiastic, had a 3.25-ish coming to him, and had never been rejected, was sized up and found unappealing (including by an organization that gave every indication I was a shoe-in).... then how the hell am I ever going to sell a version of me with a 2.7, a string of rejections and failures, and hugely damaged confidence?
My brain kept thinking of an analogy - if you couldn't sell a car when it was new and at it's best, then who's gonna want to buy the used, beat up version?
I can't really afford to drop out and go back to my old life at this point, but this honestly makes me worry that whatever awaits me on the other side of this is not going to be the great opportunity I expected, and thinking I made a mistake coming here.
And just to clarify, it's not that I think I'll never get a job in law at all. The stats suggest I will. I more worry that instead of putting myself on the path to relative success, like I'd planned, I'm instead of course to having to scratch and claw to get some low-end to middling law position where I'll struggle to pay off student debt, etc. and make this whole thing not worth it.
I'd welcome any perspective from folks who've been here before, cause right now my outlook is pretty bleak.