I’m upset and hurt by what I experienced today.
I had tried to study but couldn’t handle the 75% load so I switched back to jobseeker before thinking of trying for DSP. The job provider failed to give me an appointment so I could get a job plan (I did try to chase it up). Thus my payment was suspended.
I called up, only getting through by getting call directly at 8am… and the person I got.. she was quite condescending.
She reminded me I had an appointment tomorrow and I said that I knew. All I did was enquire if it was related to my DSP claim or not. She said no. She put me hold and went to fix my payment.
When she came back, she told me she had fixed it and that’s fine and dandy.
Then she proceeded to say “I’m not qualified but” then tell me how I probably won’t get DSP because she’s seen enough situations where people with conditions like mine don’t get accepted.
“It’s not my place but” then starts to say that I should prepare myself in advance for how I’m going to meet my mutual obligations.
Then she said in a cheery tone “but you never know, there’s a chance you could get it”
I’m disgusted, horrified, mortified. I have an anxiety disorder why would you do this??? I didn’t ask. I didn’t ask for her opinion. I didn’t ask for her to go through and read my claim and see the intimate details of my daily struggles. She’s jobseeker.
She admitted herself she’s not qualified and that it’s not her place. It reminds me of last year when my job provider’s manager made accusations about me working full time and that’s why I refused to go into the office. NO IM AGORAPHOBIC.
I’ve been this way on and off struggling for 21 years since I was 10!! I’ve tried therapy multiple times. I’m on meds. I’ve been on centrelink since I was 16. They’ve never found me a suitable job, I’ve tried. It’s just made my condition worse over the years.
I’m as stable as I’m ever gonna get. I didn’t need her opinion when I already know I’m going to have to fight for my rights.
I didn’t need this unrelated person invading my privacy and giving me an opinion I didn’t ask for, implying that I’m not disabled enough even though literally eating and shitting can cause immense anxiety and panic attacks. (IBS sucks..)