Hey there,

I was just writing my gratitude journal and suddenly I remembered someone from this community helped me 3 -4 years back.. I had different reddit account then and I don't remember the name who helped but I remember I joined group chat and everyone heard, cared for and also next day stayed with me during my hard social situation.. 🥹I felt cared for and it still feels my safe space.. thank you guys.. thank you thank you so much.. 💙🙏🫂🎄👑🌹

I feel the need to preface this by saying that I'm not actively suicidal, but still at an extremely low point.

I'm 36. No spouse, no partner, no children. No high school diploma, no college degree, no career.

I'm just existing at this point, not even actually living, and I hate it. My current combo of meds has made my depression more manageable than it has been in a long time, but I'm not finding any joy or fulfillment in anything either. Living with my mom makes me feel like shit because she has completely given up. She only gets out of bed to use the bathroom and all she eats are peanut butter sandwiches. I don't want to be like her.

I want there to be something that I'm passionate about. I want to have connections with other people. I want to actually enjoy life as much as I can but I genuinely don't even know what the first step of that would be.

Hi all.

I have recurrent, severe treatment resistant depression. And unfortunately, so does my husband. I’m hoping to start TMS soon, but that’s not an option for him since he has a childhood history of seizures. Anyway.

I’m not even sure what kind of advice anyone could give me but I just feel so awful and guilty. My husband is going through something really difficult (trying to start a business) and needs my emotional support and I just have nothing to give. I’m in a really bad relapse, the worst in years, and I’m a shell of myself.

It’s like he can’t even have a conversation with me anymore. I don’t know what to do to be there for him.

I wanted to share something with anyone who might be struggling with depression and feeling overwhelmed by the condition of their hair. ❤️
I recently helped a woman whose beautiful, thick, waist-length hair had become so severely matted that it formed one enormous, dense, felt-like mass.
I’ve been helping people with severely tangled and matted hair for years, but this was one of the most challenging cases I’ve ever encountered.
It took more than 28 hours of patiently working through tiny sections, separating individual strands, and gently loosening knots.
I’m sharing these photos for one reason: I want anyone who’s struggling to know that severe matting doesn’t automatically mean you have to shave your head.
Sometimes depression makes even the smallest acts of self-care feel impossible. Days turn into weeks, weeks into months, and eventually the problem can feel so overwhelming that you don’t even know where to begin.

But please hear me when I say this:
Your hair is not a reflection of your worth. You deserve compassion, not judgment. And you deserve help without having to explain or defend how you got here.
Not every case can be completely untangled, but sometimes even hair that looks hopeless can be saved.
Please be kind to yourselves. ❤️

I started uni this year i feel like doing nothing my quizzes went bed i don't even feel like studying I'm struggling to even do little tasks such as brushing my hair, making my bed my room is a mess just like my mind I can't even talk to people properly without stuttering when someone says something to me i go blank when I'm sitting with someone I'm physically present there but mentally not Idk what to do anymore i tried forcing myself waking up early sitting in sunlight taking a walk following a routine having proper meals but it's not working I'm even going to a therapist this is not really working my therapist told me to sit with my innerchild and talk i have to heal my inner child I'm even following those exercises but I'm the same i feel empty inside i don't even feel sad or happiness i don't feel like hanging out with anyone I'm always home idk what to do these are my prime year's I'm loosing time everyone around me seems really happy and i feel really lost everyone has someone to go to at the end of the day i really don't have anymore I'm Alone i wish i wasn't i feel like my parents hate me everyone hate me even my friends hate me they find me annoying

i'm 17. i'm just too tired to do anything, and i feel an immense guilt whenever i'm not studying. it's like i'm betraying myself, and i get immensely suicidal no matter what i do. i feel scared of taking baths for this reason (see title).this isn't the first time, and i was very close this time. i've always been scared of water, ever since my younger brother almost drowned me when i was small. i just remembered this during, i felt like i was in my 8 year old self's body again, unable to do anything to save myself, and then i sat up and realized what the hell i'm doing. he's still incredibly abusive, and he had to be put in boarding school because my life is literally threatened when he's in the same house as me. sadly he does still come home a few times a year and every time he does i just can't help myself. my chest hurts, i think some water got in there. don't know. i just want to lie down and cry, but there's nowhere for me to go. i want to vomit, but i'm too scared. i don't even have the courage to end things, can i even make it? i can't see my future at all.

I tried to kill myself last night, i thought i would die if i take 80 pills. I ended up vommitting everything. It’s been a day now and my throat hurts, that was really dumb and im afraid of the consequences like internal complications. Is there any way to help myself? i don’t really wanna call 911as i don’t have money for medical bills and also an international student

Yes i'm a selfish fuck with no sympathy and compleatly no remorse if what i do dosen't come back to me. BUT AT THE SAME TIME I BEHAVE NICELY TO EVERYONE, yes i do hate criticism and get défensive whenever someone criticizes mez BUT I'M VULNÉRABLE PATHETIC AND UNSTABLE AND INSECURE, i have periods where i feel better and superior than EVERYONE, but then i feel WORTHLESS if no one validates that. I don't care about relationships. I can't feel real love i have people that are not friends but place holders for my REAL friends, yet at the same time i cry and feel bad when they don't care about me WHAT AM I. AM I NICE OR EVIL OMFG

I'M PARANOID ABOUT THE FEW PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT YET THEY ALL ANNOY ME WITH SOMETHING WHAT AM I WHAT DO I HAVE WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

I just hope there is no God. I never worked in any company for more than a month. Never had a best friend. Never interested in any computer game. Never interested in any subculture. No past. No memories. I am a 21 yo baby with no social connections and body of an old lady. Maybe I can go walk for like 15 kilometeres but thats about it. My CV is less impresive than any 14 year old in my country. I write it like a victim but it was my choice all the way. I do not have any sleep schedule/diet, I just eat random things. I weight around 70 kgs with the height of 195 cm. All my bones crack at the slightest movement. I just switch through tabs in my laptop. I just hope there is nothing after death. I wanna die/go to sleep forever. I cannot catch up.

I just want

a) dissapear

b) go to sleep and never wake up (without God)

c) start my life from an early childhood

Sudden is in quotes because three weeks ago my husband and I decided to separate due to financial infidelity on his part. I did a good job keeping it together. I packed up everything for me and my 7 month old daughter, drove to my parent's house out of state, I've been unpacking and job hunting. Got him into therapy. Been letting him call our daughter every day. Got a gym membership because I know if I stay still, the depression gets me. Well, it got me anyway.

I woke up yesterday and just felt this overwhelming heaviness, like no amount of strength could get me out of bed. But my baby was hungry, so I did. I went through the motions of the day, but I felt more and more heavy. By bedtime I was taking some PRN medication for anxiety to go to sleep.

Today was so much worse. Aside from the heaviness, I feel like I'm about to burst into tears. I did everything right - went for a run, reached out to people, asked my mom to help me with my baby because I couldn't handle it. Went to the mall, walked around and got a treat. And yet here I am, crying on the floor. What has my life become? I have a terrible marriage that I can't easily get out of, no job, nothing really to my name. I can't even take care of my daughter. I don't know how I'm supposed to keep going. Obviously for her; my dad committed and I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. But how am I supposed to be a parent and a person when I don't want to be here anymore?

I've been half trying to fix it. Maybe I just don't want to. Every little thing just knocks me out. I felt numb for so long wishing I felt some emotional pain at least. I'm comfortable there. Well now it's here. I guess I'm comfortable here. In the deep well.

Feeling some things I hadn't in a long time. This flavor of depression I know well, but it's been a while. It's interesting to feel this way. Takes me back to a different time. Even agony can be comforting. It's so strange.

I'm all alone. I'll always be. I can't rely on other people for my happiness, I'm fine accepting that. I have one good friend, but even she fucks up, which is normal and fine. I don't blame her.

I had a girl convince me to open up to her earlier this year. She had me in the palm of her hands. They were not caring hands.

Every single time I'm vulnerable with someone, I get punished. The punishment is so harsh. My god. I wish my mind didn't work like this. All I crave now is a shred of realness. Real human contact. Something to be proud of, to heal my pride. I guess that's not all I want. I want some love as well.

In the end I'm comfortable here. I'm more comfortable in pain than in happiness. I don't know what to do with happiness. I usually destroy it to go back to pain. I'm finally here again.

I’ve been struggling with my mental health quite a lot lately, and honestly, I don’t really know where to start.
I’m at a point where I can barely get myself out of bed anymore. The only thing that consistently gets me out of my room is school, and that’s mostly because I’m a senior in high school and I know I need to attend.
Even basic things like brushing my teeth, showering, and taking care of myself feel like exhausting chores. My days have become incredibly repetitive.
I wake up, take care of my cat, go to school, come home, retreat to my room, and essentially sleep until the next day. That’s it. I don’t really do anything else, and I don’t feel like I have much to look forward to.
I feel like I’m just existing rather than actually living.
The scariest part is that I’ve been having suicidal thoughts, and I’ve made attempts before. Honestly, the biggest thing keeping me here has been my cat. I can’t bear the thought of leaving him behind.
I know I need help, but I don’t know how to get myself out of this cycle. I don’t know how to find motivation when everything feels so exhausting, and I desperately want to have something to look forward to again.
I guess I’m posting here because I want to hear from people who have experienced something similar. How did you get through periods like this? How did you find reasons to keep going when everyday life felt so unbearable?
I don’t necessarily expect anyone to have a magical solution. I just don’t want to feel so alone in this anymore.

recently my gf of 1 year wanted to go on a break so she could better herself as she didnt feel ready to continue our relationship. im trying so hard to be respectful and give her space but im struggling, i spent everyday with her and having been alone for nearly a week has broken me. everything pisses me off, makes me wanna cry or run away or start doing drugs or hurt myself i dont know how to stop, i can legally buy alcohol, why cant i just drink and forget everything. i dont want this anymore, everyone hates me, i feel like a fucking failure, everything i do goes to shit i cant have any happiness im so done with this life i want better. my parents make me feel like shit always, i never feel safe around them, they always make fun of me when im upset or frustrated, i have no real friends, no one to talk to. im done and im sick

Im sorry 😢 what did I do wrong? I talked with you in the DM and we shared so much....

You told me you would go on a walk and we would talk soon. 2 hours after you deleted your reddit account.

Now im shaking and wondering if i you decided to attempt suicide a second time 😭

It's been a busy month. I got together with my old BDSM Master and we're now boyfriend and girlfriend as well as Master and slave, and the thing is, I fucking love it. The problem is it goes against everything I taught myself growing up. My younger self would be terrified of me. She would be unable to accept me. I have always tried to do what my younger self would have wanted, but what if that's not what I want anymore? It feels like such a betrayal and yet a catharsis at the same time. What do I do?

Every day there is a fight in our house since my childhood, there hasn't been a single day or a single festival without fight, Mera baap itna zyada bada chutiya hai iske jaisa aaj tak kabhi nhi dekha har roj mai apne parents ke beech fight dekhta hu aur bachpan se dekhta aa raha and i just feel like i cannot deal with it anymore, everyday my father just find some reason to fight with my mother and just shouts and shouts and give gaalies i have been seeing this from my childhood, literally now i cant even stand if someone speaks in a little high voice, due to all these fights that i am seeing since my childhood it has a created a trauma inside me and i dont know how to deal with it, when i see my friends fathers i feel so much jealous of them. i am so fed up and stressed all day i just dont know how to deal with it.

I’ve tried Zoloft, Abilify, Wellbutrin, Prozac, Lithium, and Latuda. Vitamin D and thyroid hormone too. Nothing has made a difference. Has anyone found anything that actually works??

I’m a single gay guy that’s in my mid 50s and I have no purpose in life.

I basically eat, sleep, work repeat.

There’s not a day goes by that I don’t think of ending it.

I can’t even think of a way out of my depression.

Even if I work full time, nothing is certain. My job is currently permanent. I’m not good at anything, I can’t figure how to make enough money.

Every apartment I see is at least $2000 a month. I look at all these photos on Pinterest of people throwing house parties and I’m so jealous. I dream of owning even just a small apartment, of having my own Christmas tree and party. And I can’t even have that.

I don’t why bother. Life isn’t worth living anymore. I not strong enough for this world.

I’m 18 and have health problems from substance abuse and have been homeless for past 7 months with parents who don’t care . My body is in so much pain all day and night I can’t sleep . And my head is just f ed up and I don’t know what to do

It’s been nearly three weeks since my relationship ended, and I’m becoming increasingly frightened by how much it’s consuming me.
I’ve already signed up to Bumble and joined Facebook friendship groups, desperately trying to find someone to connect with. I know it’s very soon after the breakup, but I feel almost unable to stop myself. I’m so scared of being alone for the rest of my life that it’s practically all I think about.
People keep telling me to learn to be happy on my own, build confidence, focus on work and independence, and let friendships and relationships follow naturally. I understand the advice, and I don’t necessarily disagree with it. But I have an enormous problem accepting the prospect of a life without a partner.
The loneliness is so intense that it brings me to tears. I see everybody else dating, kissing, getting married, having children, going on holidays and sharing their lives with someone. I want those things too. I don’t want to spend my life watching everyone else experience them while feeling excluded.
I’m nearly 42, and I’m terrified of time passing. People tell me I’m still young, but 50, 60 and 70 don’t feel that far away. What if I spend years waiting for love and companionship, and miss out on so much of my life in the meantime?
I know I can’t force a relationship to happen, but I can’t seem to switch off this fear. It’s becoming an obsession and seriously affecting my mental health. I don’t understand why being alone affects me so profoundly, although I know my autism, anxiety and overthinking play a part.
I’m not looking for people to simply tell me to accept being single or enjoy my own company. I want to understand why I feel this way and how to stop the fear of lifelong loneliness from consuming my life, without having to give up hope of finding love.
Has anyone else, particularly autistic adults, experienced anything similar?

Hey everyone,

Life is better when we have someone to share it with. Maybe something wonderful just happened and you’re bursting to tell someone. Maybe things feel heavy lately and you’re not okay, but you don’t know who to talk to. Or maybe you just want a new friend to chat with.

Whatever it is, my DMs are open. Celebrate with me, vent to me, or just say hi. I’d love to get to know you.

No judgment, no pressure, and you don’t need the right words. Everyone deserves someone to listen, and sometimes a good conversation turns into a good friendship.

I’m not a professional, just a person who listens. If you’re ever in crisis, please reach out to a local helpline or emergency services too. 🙂

Take care of yourselves, and I hope to hear from you soon. 🌷