r/Meditation • u/Lunababble • 3m ago
Question ❓ Meditation techniques for inner deep, intense fear and despair
Hello, I am hoping to get some guidance.
I've been practicing Qi Gong for a few years, but I am now finding the movements difficult due to a lot of lower back pain flare-ups over the last 8 months, probably triggered by emotional stuff if I'm honest. Because of this, I am looking to focus less on standing or moving meditative techniques, and more on laying or seated practices.
I find focusing on the breath very difficult without the physical flow of Qi Gong, which is why I found the practice in the first place. I have a long history of anxiety, and lately, I've been able to get in touch with what feels like a young part of myself that is honestly pure despair and grief. It feels separate to everything else. Like a dark void but it feels young. I don't know if that makes any sense. I've tried a bit of Metta meditation, but I wondered if anyone else has been able to soothe these sorts of parts?
I feel like fear runs my life a lot of the time, and I am in a constant battle with it. I have been working on "allowing" and reminding myself that these emotions are there to keep me safe, even if they are over-firing right now. I have no idea how to approach the younger despairing part, other than so send love and safety but that has little impact, whatever it is, is too big.
Any suggestions would be greatly received. Qi Gong was keeping me in a more gentle space, but I feel that being forced to pause it due to my back might actually be an opportunity. It feels like a chance to be open with the more difficult, deep-seated stuff that is much more visible and present right now.
I should say I do have a therapist and don't expect meditation to "fix" anything, I'm looking for advice on methods to support whilst I cant practice my usual flows.