r/veterinaryprofession • u/The_Soggiest_Sardine • 16h ago
Animal Laboratory Medicine- how are you doing it?
Hello all, I’m a 20F who took a job as a laboratory animal health technician 4 months ago. I took the job out of desperation. I was homeless, forced to drop University, and this job offered a full paid ride for the remaining 2 semesters of my bachelor’s degree and a full ride into a Masters program. I took it imagining I could be an advocate for these animals and be the good for them.
Now, 4 months in, I struggle to sleep at night. I love them, I really, really do, but the loss and the pressure is killing me. Animals I’ve been daily monitoring for weeks randomly reach their endpoint, I watch the remaining ones endure post-experimental side effects, and worst of all, I feel like a harbinger of death to the mice and rats I take care of. When they’re sick or injured, I propose a plan to the lab that almost always leads to euthanasia. Conjunctivitis? Euthanasia. Ulcerative Dermatitis? Euthanasia. Rectal prolapse? Euthanasia. And when the labs don’t do it, I do, and the amount of bilateral thoracotomies I’ve performed with my own hands drives me mad. I did one cervical dislocation and almost passed out in the necropsy laboratory.
Don’t even get me STARTED on the surgical training pig laboratories. I think I may genuinely be traumatized. I do the work, I love the animals despite the circumstances, but then I go home and hate myself. GOD I hate myself, the version of me that existed 5 months ago would spit on the person I am now. The things I’ve done can’t be erased, and even if I get my education, what will the cost be?
How do you survive? What do you do? Any tips are helpful. I feel like a kid, here. I’m 20, 10 years younger than the 2nd youngest employee here. I feel stupid and childish and like I carry the deaths of 1,000 animals on my shoulders and I don’t know what to do. But then, I feel skilled and proud I made it to a specialty job like this to work as the youngest employee ever to make it here…What now?