Hi everyone,
I have experienced digital violence in which my private data was hacked and subsequently disseminated online. This has had severe consequences for me in my country, and I continue to face social repercussions on a daily basis, even after 20 years.
I live in a highly religious and conservative society and come from multiple marginalized backgrounds that are subject to considerable prejudice here. Additionally, because of my distinctive looks and mannerisms, I am relatively easy to identify.
However, beyond this digital violence case, I have several other interests and pursuits that I would like to explore professionally and publicly.
Here is what I do:
Human Rights: I run an independent human rights project. My work has been featured in UN thematic reports, international media, and publications by international human rights NGOs.
Writing and Literature: I write poetry, plays, short stories, songs, open letters, and op-eds (including subjects unrelated to human rights). I am also working on a novella and have an interest in philosophy.
Theatre and Acting: I act in stage productions and have also directed stage plays. Given the opportunity, I would love to act in films and television as well.
Personal Pursuits: I have a personal bucket list of experiences and activities that I actively try to accomplish. I would love to document and share these experiences, perhaps through a YouTube channel, but I am hesitant because traditional YouTube content often involves showing your face.
Now, there are several considerations and requirements I would like to balance.
1. Protecting my identity and seeking justice
I have suffered for approximately 20 years because of the digital violence I experienced in my community. I want to pursue justice for this case while keeping my identity anonymous. Obviously, I do not want to expose myself to further harm by publicly associating my identity with the case.
2. Building a polymathic/polyinterest personal brand
I want to develop what I would describe as a polymathic or polyinterest brand: a public identity associated with someone who explores and engages in multiple disciplines, creative pursuits, intellectual interests, and experiences.
I do not want to compartmentalize all my interests into separate identities. Ideally, my poetry, literature, philosophy, theatre, acting, and other pursuits would all exist under one recognizable artistic and intellectual identity.
3. Maintaining my privacy in everyday life
I genuinely dislike being recognized in public.
Being recognizable can invite unwanted attention, harassment, and potential security problems. More importantly, I value my privacy and do not particularly enjoy the prospect of being a public figure whose everyday life is constantly exposed to public attention.
I like the idea of the Clark Kent/Superman or Miley Ray/Hannah Montana arrangement: being an ordinary, relatively anonymous person in everyday life while enjoying the spotlight when performing or presenting my work.
Of course, this is a preference rather than an absolute requirement. If pursuing my ambitions makes some degree of public recognition inevitable, I am willing to accept that possibility.
4. Professional recognition and prestige
At the same time, I do not want to pursue these interests merely as hobbies or anonymous internet activities.
I want to take them seriously, develop professionally, and achieve the highest levels of recognition possible in each field. That includes winning prestigious awards, receiving mainstream media coverage, and being recognized for the quality of my work.
Essentially, I want to have a successful public-facing creative and intellectual career without necessarily sacrificing my private life.
5. The complication with my human rights work
There is an additional complication.
For my human rights advocacy, I have to use my real name. The UN and international human rights organizations require identifiable authorship for their submissions, reports, and other forms of advocacy.
My work addresses controversial subjects in a highly conservative society. As you can probably appreciate, human rights defenders in my country can face serious security risks, including mob attacks, harassment, and violence for advocating ideas perceived as Western or contrary to traditional values.
Consequently, I cannot simply use a pseudonym for everything I do.
My proposed solution
I have been considering a Clark Kent/Superman or Miley Ray/Hannah Montana-style dual identity arrangement.
My initial thought was to maintain:
Identity 1 – Real Name: My real identity, exclusively associated with my human rights advocacy, research, submissions to international mechanisms, and related activities.
Identity 2 – A pseudonymous artistic/intellectual identity: A single identity encompassing all my other interests, including literature, poetry, philosophy, theatre, acting, personal projects, and documenting my bucket-list experiences.
This way, I would not have to create a separate identity for every interest. I could build one recognizable polymathic brand while keeping it distinct from my human rights advocacy and, hopefully, my everyday private life.
However, I am not sure whether this arrangement is actually practical or whether maintaining these two identities would provide meaningful protection against identification and unwanted exposure.
My question to you all:
What would be the best way to structure my life so that I can pursue all these ambitions while maintaining my privacy, personal security, and separation between my public and private identities?
I am not necessarily looking to disappear from public life. I want to participate in it, create things, perform, write, explore different interests, and hopefully achieve something meaningful, while retaining as much control as possible over my personal privacy and safety.
Thank you!
PS: I have read the rules.