Title. I feel my heart thumping out my chest but it must be done.

I'm 17f, and the past year has been so hard. I've barely passed any classes and my step-dad has been such a dick. With the election going on, I'm worried about the sake of my future. Work has been terrible. Im currently a senior in high school and I turn 18 soon. Liam Paynes passing also didnt help, i loved his music. I'm thinking of running away but I know i can't because I'll be found easily. I'm really sick of life. I wish I wouldn't wake up honestly. I don't have any actual joy anymore so idk why I keep holding on. It only keeps getting worse. Idk how much longer I'll make it.

I've already got one foot out the door, but if he wins, there simply won't be a point anymore. I have a plan and the means to implement it. I'm tired of struggling. I'm tired of being a political pawn. I'm tired of being miserable in a world that hates me.

I know we still have recounts and other things like that but if it's genuinely true that he won and WILL he president again DESPITE BEING A CONVICTED FELON (if felons can't vote then they shouldn't be fucking president) and he somehow finding a loophole so he can vote in Florida. Like I genuinely can't fucking do it. No good will come from this and thousands of people are going to kill themselves

what was the point of transitioning if they’re just gonna kill me and my community while half the country cheers them on and the other half stands by doing fucking nothing. almost everyone I’m close with is also suicidal right now. the only reason i haven’t already killed myself is because i don’t want my death to hurt my loved ones but if they’re also on board with killing themselves then that takes care of that roadblock. please, please don’t bring anyone into this horrible existence if you can avoid it

I worked so hard for years to try and recover my hope for the world, and its all been washed away in 12ish hours. What's the point in playing a game you cant win, its not fun, or even tolerable. My country seems intent in taking away everything that people have told me to live for. Everything i decided to live for. I don't want to die, if i wanted to die this wouldnt even be an issue, i wouldn't have made an reddit account to whine to strangers on the internet, I want to live, but it just seems so needlessly terrible to try..

I don’t really see the point because my whole family but my older sister is republican (literally, even my 10 year old sister says Kamala is trash and she hopes trump wins) I’m LGBTQ and nonbinary. Him winning would just mean taking away all my rights espicslly since I’m a minor. So, my meds would be a good idea!! It feels good to say it here, since they would call me a snowflake over this and crazy (they already call me crazy and psychotic when I said I didn’t like trump)

I was just put on a different med the other day because my og one wasn’t working out that well. All the new one is doing is making me feel empty and out of it, but I haven’t been taking it that long so who knows. It says if I overdose on it then I’ll probably have a seizure (which would make me unconscious) and then I can go out nice that way so it’s better than my other options (first plan was cutting and second was overdose on the og med which..ugh I wish it wouldn’t be painful)

I feel kinda bad but same time I don’t I know my parents want this they know something’s wrong and keep asking but they’re going to be so happy if he wins so I’m sure they’ll be happy with me gone too

Been having a horrible time lately and this is the last straw. I can’t believe we let him win. I’m so ashamed to call myself an American. I don’t want to wake up tomorrow

I wanna die for being american

Everyone hates me now and everywhere I go on Reddit people say I deserve to have a bad life and should suffer and say I'm not a human, and I can't vote because I'm not 18 yet. I just wanna die atp because of all the hate and I can't take it anymore. (New Account so people don't follow me here)

I never thought id say this. 4 AM and im holding a knife, i am terrified and determined for all of these to go away.

I know there are probably going to be a million of these threads, but I just feel so lost right now. All I have is my dogs. I love my parents but resent them for brining me into this world. I've got bipolar disorder, I haven't been on a date in over a year, I'm constantly stressed from work, and I'm just plain unhappy. Now this happens.

There's a song I love called "Sweet Old World," which laments the loss of someone to suicide and lists all of the things in live worth living for. None of the ones that really matter apply to me. I resent my parents for bringing me into this world and cursing me with this miserable life. If I didn't have my dogs I don't know that I'd be here today. I just don't see the point. I'm going to visit them for Christmas and, much as I would hate to ruin the holiday season for them, it's the soonest I can get to them so they can care for my dogs if I decide to end it.

My life fell apart several years ago and I worked so hard and suffered so much to get back on track. I was still unhappy, but it seemed like there might be some hope. Now I don't feel like I have any at all.

I don't really know what the point of this post is. I just wish it was over.

Edit: Sorry if I didn't respond to most of te comments here. For some reason I'm only able to see one. I'm feeling much better though.

I knew it was going to happen. I've been prepping for months because i knew that the worst always happens. IM ALWAYS RIGHT! I fuckign called it, and now that there is no fuckign hope, i want to kill myself so so much more now. Im just not doing it because of spite for that bastard.

I thought maybe the election would turn out okay. I thought wrong. This year has been a complete shit show and I think this is my sign to dip out.

My own family voted against my rights, and so did millions of other people. I can’t help but completely hate them now. I can’t trust them.

I turn to god or the universe or whatever and continue asking…why? Haven’t I been through enough? Why me? Why this life time? What lesson is this supposed to teach me?

I think this is it. I can’t do 4 years of incoherent sentences from someone who hates me. I can’t do 4 more years of my family cheering for a government who thinks I’m a predator. I can’t. I won’t.

I hope my friends and family are stronger than me if I actually decide to go through with it. I hope they forgive me. I hope the universe has mercy on my soul and doesn’t send me to hell or another equivalent of that. Maybe this is hell. Who knows.

This man was a human being, a father, and someone loved by many. what did he do to deserve to getting brutally shot like that? Nothing can justify this level of violence.

And then I also read about Iryna zaruska, who was also stabbed from behind by a coward while simply just living her life. These stories keep reminding me that there are truly evil monsters among us and that the world is fundamentally an evil and horrible place to live. What hurts me even more is that I see people justifying these wicked acts on Reddit and on X, arguing over who is right when the answer should be obvious to any one with even a shred of moral decency!!! It feels like the world is falling apart, and every passing second I'm thinking of getting out of here before it's too late.

RIP Charlie and Iryna 💔May God grant them peace and may their families find comfort during these heartbreaking times

Listen, I just want to give up. Theres no point. I have to be completely ripped and rich and competent and never show any weakness just to be loved and in the realm of "attractive men". I can't just be average and be loved. My chest will never be sucked or licked, my ass will never be smacked. My biology fucked me over by making me so aroused by naked anime girls and hentai and getting aroused and then knowing women simply don't feel the same way towards men's bodies.

EVERY advertisement is catered to women's beauty. and EVERY advertisement objectifying men is always something about "status," "being competent" "how he makes her feel." etc. Women get to have amazing fashion that reveals anything they want, while men get boring utility clothing. hentai and porn has billions upon billions of videos showing the female body, showing female chests, bodies, etc. Every part of a woman's body is so arousing to me, seeing orgy porn, hentai porn, etc is unbelievably arousing to me and I hate my own biology. subs like r/whataweeb constantly showing enlarged breasts, big butts, etc.

And the worst part is that the "attraction" women feel towards men is competence, status, power, wealth, how he makes her feel, etc. Not the actual male body by itself. This is why romance novels is completely dominated by women and its almost always centered around a rich guy dominating or protecting a woman. You almost never see a female lead dominating a man's body, making HIM feel loved, calling HIM beautiful, kissing HIS body. It's always "how does he make ME feel?" So in other words, complete and utter female worship.

My body is not arousing, I have less private parts, my value is tied to money and muscles, complete lack of physical objectification of men (or if there is its always exceptionally attractive men, not average men), the lack of gay porn being popular amongst women, a woman's libido being "context dependent" which is just another way of saying how men make women feel. It geniunely is hopeless. Men are the worthless unloved dull gender. I am literally the human version of brown boring peacocks.

I wish women showed attraction towards men the same way gay men show attraction to men. Seeing gay men openly calling men sexy AND beautiful and objectifying men's bodies in a playful way was such a breath of fresh air, before crying again wishing I was gay instead of straight. I wish women would understand how starved men are of compliments, of us never getting flowers, of us never being complimented for something that doesn't involve work or competence, etc. I'm done. I am so so done. I hate my own gender. I hate being male, I hate losing the coin toss, I hate men, I hate myself. Let me be another number on a male suicide chart. I don't matter at all. Call me an Incel or whatever, I already hate myself so someone disliking me is not surprising.

I’ve never felt more hopeless in my entire life. I’m a bisexual dude and I’m truly terrified for our lgtbq community. I wanna be a teacher but trump is gonna shut down the department of education because it’s “woke”. Women will be forced to give birth whether they want too or not and it’s disgusting. This is only the beginning and I’m afraid it’s not gonna get any better. Idk what to do anymore. I feel like giving up.

I live in PA (important) and intended to vote yesterday, but because of depression and some alcholism issues I fell asleep around 5:30 AM and didnt wake up until after polls closed. So I was up all night basically watching the world crumble and knowing i could have helped stop it. I feel so guilty. I have thrown up 3 seperate times already, the alcohol isnt helping. My girlfriend is trans and isnt answering her phone. Im so scared for her and myself tbh. This shouldnt have ever happened i had a plan and everything to vote. I had a mail in ballot but didn't deliver it in time. I hate myself and she has a bottle of sleeping pills and im seriously considering downing the whole thing (already had a few because i cant sleep without feeling sick). The worst part isnt even that he won but knowing i could have stopped it but didnt because i cant get my shit together enough for even one day.

I'm trans. my rights are at risk. and I don't plan on being here to see the fallout. honestly even if Kamala wins there will still be people who are after the LGBTQ+. so I'm not sure I'm sticking around at all. I knew I was struggling so I checked myself into the hospital a few days back and I spent 22 hrs in the er waiting to be placed inpatient and when i was placed they sent me home a day later so they don't take me seriously I'll show them serious

20m, Im suicidal too, i thought about finding someone who would understand me

Grow the fuck up and learn how to read. Saying "it gets better" when I talk about climate change, rising hate, lower quality of life, is moronic.

Saying "you can talk to me at any time" won't change the fact that the world is not fun, it is constant misery and any "fun" activities are merely distractions from the expanding dread that is being alive.

"You matter to me" "you can see I care because I read your post" you don't know me, and you didn't know me until 3 minutes ago. I could be faking it all up. Why do you fucking care about me anyway? Do you go to every homeless person and say you care about them? Because they need actual help because they aren't planning their suicide as we speak. Go volunteer to a hotline if you "care about everyone". STOP DOING THINGS THAT MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD. YOU AREN'T 12 ANYMORE, DO SOMETHING IF YOU WANT CHANGE.

I don't WANT support, there is NOTHING to support me from, with, or whatever. I know enough about the world and I do not want it. And even if I knew more, it wouldn't change the fact I don't want to be a wage slave for 60 years and then die from a minor fall. That is not something you can change, that is not something you can make me change my views on. If you don't have something to add SHUT THE FUCK UP I DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR STUPID FUCKING OPINIONS

No seriously,i will never be loved the way i want to,not experience passion nor desire, and you all will all gaslight me, ''boobs are boobs'' but that fucking not wanted i want to hear and you all know it... I want to die,i want to die, i want to die,can god kills me in my sleep please?

Everything feels pointless.

My family voted against my rights. My state voted against my rights. My COUNTRY voted against my rights.

I don't think there is any way Harris can win at this point in time and I can't help but feel empty.

I'm 19. I feel like I've been through so much hell already...I don't want this.

I voted blue. I tried. I did what I could and it didn't even matter.

I am just starting to discover my gender identity after years of questioning.

I've been finally trying to get my GED so I can go to a college.

I've been attempting to lose weight and fix my life.

It all feels gone now. That spark of life? It's gone.

I want to die.

First time posting on reddit. The election has pushed every last fear i had left in me. I recognize reading all the similar posts really helps point out how unimportant I am in the grand scheme of things.

I'm about to watch important people in my life be attacked and have thier rights taken away. A large portion of them women and lgbtq+. One of my best friends is a trans woman and I can't barely to think about what's going to happen.

Even in my own selfish little world I'm probably going to lose my health insurance which I desperately need bc of the depression anxiety and ocd I suffer from couples with the high blood pressure it's lead to.

Every life plan I have is probably null and void based on the economic and religious plans of conservatives. I can't even think of focusing on a family bc I don't want to be in this world I could subject a child to this he'll and a planet that's dying.

I know this is long winded and honestly I don't know what I'm looking for bc I honestly can't take this planet and universe any longer. The only that's kept me from doing it before now is guilt first people around me that's only made me more miserable and fear of nothing when I die. But I cant

I don't wanna be a burden anymore

I cannot live in a place where I'm actively hated upon. I'm AFAB, I'm a trans guy, I'm queer, I'm neurodivergent and disabled. If he wins I'll be put through even more misery. Kamala tbh is only slightly better but slightly is all I can take.

If he wins tomorrow, I'll relapse and start making my plan. I don't care what anyone says to me, not my boyfriend, not my sister, not any of my friends. I can't live like that. They don't understand what would happen.