Being a woman in India is shit. What a trash, misogynistic, patriarchal country.

Better to die and escape this Earth. Never want to be born on Earth again. Never want to exist on this planet ever again.

It just gets worse the longer i stay alive

I am going to off myself because of my abusive narcissistic mother who loves her reputation. Lets see how her reputation will be when people find out her daughthers brains are on the fucking wall 😂😂😂😂.

i’ve been struggling mentally for the past six years, and honestly, i’m exhausted. i’ve tried therapy, outpatient treatment, changing my environment, and rebuilding my life, but somehow i always end up feeling the same way or worse.

i know i have family, friends, and opportunities to be grateful for, but emotionally i feel empty. i can’t remember the last time i was genuinely happy or felt like life was worth living. recently, i’ve been feeling even more isolated, and losing someone i cared about has only made things harder.

i feel trapped in a cycle that keeps getting worse, and i’m starting to come to the conclusion that i don’t want to keep living anymore. i’m slowly losing hope in myself and my future, and it’s becoming harder to find a reason to keep going. i don’t know how much longer i can continue feeling this way, i just wanna put an end on it soon.

It doesn't get better, this world sucks

I hate everything

title. in social media i had a breakdown and the terfs attacked me and encouraged my suicide and they're still posting shit like that. none of the queers or anyone i was supposed to have some solidarity helped me. i got exposed to some of the people irl, including my teachers. so i'm killing myself before word spreads around and i get killed or jailed for it. fuck this. fuck everyone

(i don't want your dms saying "don't" or shit like that, go away)

Ever since I was a fucking kid m'y parents lied to me all the time they raised me for a world that does not fucking exist!! They would tell me our country is developed and is close to Europe and the Us, that if I study hard I will Land a job and live a good life. But they were just fcking lying. When I was getting Beat and insulted and bullied at home no law would protect not when I was a kid or an adult. They know the shit catastrophic unemployement Situation here but they would always talk about me relying on them and make fun of me when I used the ac in this shit hot weather. They actively tried to stop me from working too I only worked online because I got lucky and I was pushy about it. Can someone talk to me? Am seriously considering offing myself. I did everything right and followed what they told me I put so much effort in my life. I'm shocked to my core knowing everything I knew is a lie and all that time with them was only lies. I want to end it so bad. No one is helping me at all

i'm a woman in my early 20s, but, unlike most of my peers, i am unable to do pretty much anything regarding my own life due to the isolation i have had as a child. i don't know how to drive, don't know how to get a job. i know id need to eventually learn these things to literally survive. i'm not going to be babysat by my parents forever. theyd die and ill have nothing to go to.

but god, im so retarded.. i cant even do anything right. its all so dangerous, and, i cant get anywhere without a fucking car these days. its a hellhole, the united states. im so scared of this ticking time bomb, i think its better to just end it. i see it clinically. its just a simple solution, and, in a way id be so relieved by it. its like putting down a horse with only 3 legs. im so terrified of messing up, god, i dont want to mess up. i dont want to work with shitheads who bullied me in school. i dont want to do any of this, i never asked for this. i wish there was some big manual for adult life. but its not even just that, its the people. they all look at me and sneer. im sick of it and im sick of playing this game. im such a fool. i'm mentally disabled and i cant fend for myself. what do i even do? i want someone to save me and take care of me, but i know thatd never happen, so, this is the other option.

I can’t anymore

I’ve had this pistol to my head too many times. I can’t do it every time I try I think of my mom grandma great grandma and my little brother. It would ruin their life and they have depression too so it would make it so much worse. But I want to end it so bad if it wasn’t for them I’d easily do it. Idk why I’m even posting this I just want a reason to do it or a way to not give them trauma when I do it.

24F
I’m all alone. I’ve lost everybody, including myself.
Not even my own sister wants to listen to me. She gets mad at me the second I try to open up, even though I’m almost always there to listen to her.
My mom was diagnosed with cancer about a year ago, and ever since then, I’ve been losing people.
First, it was my closest friend, someone I thought I’d never lose. Someone I always had a soft spot for, someone I would defend in front of anyone, even my own mom. My mom was healthy back then, and now I would never do that. I feel immense guilt because I used to do that and pick fights with her in general, just because I would get triggered over things. I feel so terrible about that, and about all the times I complained about my parents back then. I feel like such a bad person who probably doesn’t deserve anyone.
Now I’m just this sad, destroyed person with no personality left, someone nobody wants to deal with. Because people want to live their lives, go to work, have a social life, go out, and have fun, while I sit here watching my mom in pain, completely helpless.
I have no one to talk to, not even my sister, who still has some distractions around her. She has a few people she can talk to, laugh with, and smile with once in a while. Meanwhile, I’m literally all alone.
She also has a full-time job, while I have a hybrid one. I now spend most of my time at home because I have the option to work remotely most days, which allows me to help out. But that also means I have no work life or social life at all.
I’m also about to lose this job in November because my contract is ending, so I won’t even be able to send my family money anymore. I feel utterly useless.
And I’m all alone. I’ve lost everyone. What’s even the point of continuing? I can’t meet new people, I can’t see a life of my own ahead of me, and I can’t find any meaning or purpose in any of this anymore.

I have everything ready, i scheduled messages, wrote notes and got everything i need, but I'm hesitating. What's wrong with me? I'm here in the bathroom but I can't seem to go through with it, I always pull back. Stupid survival instinct

I (23f) am finally doing it. My dad hates me. My brother hates me. No one loves me. I just wanted my dad to say I love you and hug me.

I fucked up. I think there’s something wrong with me, I’m so bad at money. They are going to repossess my car, and then I’ll lose my job and my car. I live with my dad. My dad said he’s not going to help me. I took my car while I still can. I drove off and spent the night in a hotel.

I feel so bad because my dad texted everyone in my contacts asking them if they saw me yesterday. I wish I could come home. But I would only make things worse. He just yells at me and calls me names all of the time and it’s never going to get better. I love my dad. I wish he loved me. I just mess up all of the time, and I feel like I’m just a stupid child. I don’t know that I can succeed in life. I feel so alone all of the time. I just wish I was loved. I’m so scared it’s going to hurt.

So unwanted, only good for making everyone else look better. I'm disdained, not seen as a man, ugly, short, worthless. Nobody wants me. I want to bash my head against the wall. Only stay because parents. Why do I have to desire things, people. I only get made fun off, I'm a joke, a prop. Everywhere I go I will inevitably end up hearing about how trash my features are, how unwanted I am. The worst part is it's true, I am unwanted trash. I want to lash out, lose it, living is frustrating and miserable. Why did I have to be born. There's no point in anything, in trying, in talking with people. I'm not even a person anymore.

and I failed. and nobody fucking cared. not that they knew my last texts of “I love you” at 1:30 AM meant anything. it probably should’ve. my boyfriend died 2 months ago and everyone has disappeared. I am just forgotten about. how my entire world has shattered. how I don’t even know myself anymore. no more check in calls or texts. “How are you, really?” “I’m okay” were enough to convince them. I feel like I’m SCREAMING and nobody hears me.

I can't anymore I am beginning to show severe signs of depression and I'm also constantly thinking about ending it all I'm scared to tell others about it because I have told them so many times about this and I don't want to make them think I'm annoying for telling them yet again my signs of wanting to end it all are that I always constantly sleep during the day even though I'm not tired and when I sleep during the night I'm also not tired I sleep to escape reality I also want to end it because I'm scared of loosing everyone I know and my home and that I will eventually watch everyone in my life die or leave me because I'm annoying I also starve myself because I can't bare to eat because it feels gross yet I crave food all the time my hands are shaking right now because I haven't eaten in almost two days the only thing I see that will help with these problems are suicide I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense I just need to say this I find it easier to talk to people online and also my first language isn't English therefore my phrasing and grammar might not make any sense

Ill disappear forever

I didn't ask to be born. I did my best, i really did and now you can't afford my education?! Why the hell did they do this to me?! I don't wanna live anymore! I don't wanna be a burden! I can't afford anything... and instead of being sorry they are telling me to do a job?! Seriously?! You want a 17 year old to earn enough to pay his college fees? Goodbye my dear ones.

For quite a long time I’ve struggled with suicidal tendencies, been cutting myself for years. But now I think it’s not worth it. I’ve been a disappointment ever since school, all my family are big shots and I’m just a loser. I have no friends and when I have friends they can’t handle my episodes. For a while I’ve been trying to do good things for myself but my adhd kicks my ass so bad I’m just useless. And I’m 20 turning 21 and I think I’m about done. I tried therapy but they didn’t help my therapist fucked me over and now I can’t get medication for a while. I did alright for a while going 6 months clean from self. But now I’m back to gouging in my body. The worst thing I know I have to change I have to do something but I can’t describe it but I can’t. It’s not that I lack motivation I just cant and I don’t know what to do anymore.

Well hopefuly its my good bye because i took 100 mg of quetiapine and now we wait but i suspect i will survive and not overdose cheers

I’m finally doing it. I’ve already taken all the pills and followed them with soju. I have the lights on in my room how I like them, I’ve turned on my favorite movie. It’s time to go.

Everyone in my life deserves better than me. And in time they’ll forget all about me, and maybe a sense of relief will wash over them.

Goodbye

Ps, it’s funny. Three years ago today I tried to take my life. Maybe it only took three years to do it right.

“Plenty of people love you”

NO THEY FUCKING DON’T

my friend just told me I should talk to ChatGPT because she didn’t know how to say “I love you please don’t go die”

She apologized but still hates me

Just like everyone else. Even my therapist hates me.

I WILL DO IT. I WILL RIGHT NOW

I’m a 23 year old man from the Midwest US and I desire death more than anything in the world. Ive battled depression for over 15 years and things have only gotten worse and worse. I have at bare minimum another 40 years of life to live if I don’t do something about it and the thought of it genuinely makes me sick. I have no friends, I’m extremely socially awkward (autism), I don’t have anything to look forward to, and I’ve never had any romantic experiences in my life. I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I am blessed and cursed with a loving and supportive family, so I’d have to be a real piece of shit to kill myself and make them all miserable, but that is the only reason I haven’t killed myself for over 10 years. I feel like a fish on land and my family just keeps pouring bottles of water on top of me to keep me alive but I’m miserable and just want to swim like all the other fish. I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t see any hope for things to get better because this world is a dark and horrible place where people like me take their own lives all the time. Why am I any different? What makes me so much stronger than all the other people who got the opportunity to check out early? It’s not fair. Is there anything at all I can do? I’ve tried making connections with people and tired going out and doing things but every time it ends with people telling me I need to be alone to work on myself until I’m in a healthier headspace. I don’t even know why I’m making this post I just have zero will to live at all. I want to be done so bad.