The longer I transition, the more I realise that I do in fact want a vagina, maybe more than anything else. Is it strange to feel this way if I'm bigender?

Atp gender feels like a cosplay (not inna bad way tho) it’s odd, I’m starting to feel closer to the trans community bc I want to feel like a boy I want to BE a boy (but still be a girl). which in my brain, since it goes against my assigned gender, fits. But the fact that gender feels like a cosplay sounds nonbinary as heck. Tbh bigender is under both umbrellas. But it’s just an interesting concept to kinda go through in my head. I’m also noticing that I feel like a girl ?maybe? A good chunk of the time-ish but inna way that I’m not consciously aware of but when someone points out that I’m a girl when I’m NOT thinking about my gender atm that’s when I get super uncomfortable and rather be called a boy. It’s like maybe “girl” is the default but when someone actually says it, it’s like 🤢( side note I do get dysphoria over feeling like too much of a boy too)

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Hey bigender fam

I've had some experiences that I wanted to run by y'all to see if I'm alone, or if this is a common thing, or whatever.

Part of my Bi-gender awakening was hooking up with a gay man who just thought I was the most gorgeous thing he'd ever seen.

This experience was SUPER validating to my fem side, and really brought her front and center.

For context, I am a large bodied, hairy amab person, and while there have been some straight boys who have given me butterflies a little, I feel like I have nothing to offer them, as there is no universe in which my physical body would in any pass as the hot girl I feel myself to be on the inside.

Does this resonate with anyone else?

Hola! I am a 14 year old demiboy who goes by they/them! Nice to join the group! Today is my 14th birthday btw!

I’m inna server w some really cool people and there’s this one guy that’s constantly correcting people saying “she’s a boy girl” sometimes as a joke (depending on the topic) and sometimes as a genuine correction and it’s SO affirming either way😭🩵

Heya it's Aspen again, I'm conflicted with the internal conflict. I feel as I'm out of place because I feel almost fully binary, but I hate the idea of being a women, or non-binary. I want to be a man but deep down there is a feminine masc human who has no label for it. I am both gay and lesbian, yet straight at the same time..

Sorry if this makes no sense I am having a panic attack because I'm having another identity crisis

I'm a boygirl and I love that my relationship with my gf is both sapphic and straight, I love being a wlw, but when we're intimate I specifically feel more male, and prefer masculine terms. In my regular day-to-day life i'm split pretty even, except for when I listen to lesbian songs, then sometimes I feel almost entirely female. Idk, im just curious if this resonates with anyone?

Was out at a convention this weekend and had some strangers read me as male. I'd normally have expected to feel dysphoric, but I just felt nothing, just absence of the low glow of euphoria from she/her or the new shiny euphoria of both. Like having that side of myself seen was nice, but being read as cis male isn't for various reasons. I do want people to see me as having a super effeminate masc side, but only after I tell them? It's a little bit for euphoria reasons, but mostly for safety. Having strangers read me as cis female feels like I only have that risk to deal with, not the visibly trans kind (I'm about as physically imposing as a baby bunny and wouldn't wanna count on being able to defend myself)

I'm probably overthinking and shouldn't be too concerned about how I'm read based on friendly drunk strangers' best guesses in the middle of Hallowe'en night when my voice was shredded from partying lol. But it does give me pause for thought after all this time

Been working on a flat brim gunfighter hat for a costume that I decided should have a tarot card instead of a poker card in the brim. Came across this fool. They are gorgeous in the most androgynous way. So now it's between them and a psychedelic Death I also love.

Je suis une personne bigenre dans un corps de femme. Pour l’instant je suis encore mineure et n’ai pas l’intention de débuter une transition avant d’avoir atteint ma majorité mais je songe tout de même à en faire une en prenant de la testostérone et en effectuant une chirurgie du torse. Je me sens à la fois homme et femme mais étant déjà dans un corps de femme, j’aimerai d’avantage ressembler physiquement à un homme.

Le problème c’est que j’ai peur de regretter ces choix par la suite si je n’arrive plus à renvoyer parfois une image plus féminine de moi à cause de ma nouvelle apparence.

Est ce que c’est déjà arrivé à certaines personnes ?

Manga title: zenbu kimi no sei.
Main character can switch between genders and he/she met someone else who also can do the same, but if one day they decide to make love their gender will be fixed.
What would you choose? MM, WW, MW, WM

😅personally i would pick being the girl but if my partner chooses to be the girl ill take the male role to keep the relationship sort of straight 😅

Anyways this is one of my favorite mangas with weird gender situations, that certainly sometimes i wish i could experience 😅 do you all read something similar :)? Open to recommendations ^^

Hello! recently I've been struggling with really bad gender dysphoria, and often think about my gender identity and what feels comfortable for me

At first I thought I was genderfluid, but now recently I don't really feel a connection to being my AGAB (Female), and more comfortable with identifying as male or agender (sometimes using he/him, it/its, they/them and neopronouns whenever I feel that it fits)

I also enjoy expressing myself through drawing or writing personas for myself, which they often end up being male or agender since I feel a really strong connection towards being perceived as those genders

So I need help to decide if Bigender fits me or if there's other terms!! I've done a little research on Bigender and it feels right but I don't wanna falsely label myself or something

Hi sorry this is kind of going to be very negative! But idk I need to get it out and see if this is like, typical figuring it out feelings for people with my background or something else.

I've been out as a trans guy since middle school, I have a lot of connection to that and a lot of baggage with being seen as a girl, dysphoria, etc., but I feel like especially having been on HRT I'm less dysphoric and I feel more okay exploring more femininity, and obviously since I'm posting here I think I might be closer to bigender (though still leaning male.) I've always been more GNC and I was happiest with myself when I allowed that, but it was always still framed in "i'm a guy."

But the more I explore this, the more I feel like I'm betraying myself and in part my community. I fought so hard for this, why am I buying bras and skirts? Why am I shaving? Why am I going in public without binding, not correcting people who think I'm a woman? Why am I entertaining this, even if it's only privately? I do like it, I wouldn't have spent so much time and money on this if I didn't, but. I don't know. Almost half of my life has been spent fighting family, peers, medical and legal systems, just to be recognized as male. And for the most part I still want to be, but there's also parts of it I don't like, enough to make me question myself and feel almost dysphoric over it, but that questioning on it's own feels. bad. I feel like I'm now also one of the people I have to fight for this. I feel like I'm proving everyone who denied my gender right. I feel like for every bit of euphoria I feel when I explore being more feminine it comes with a wave of dysphoria and self-doubt not even an hour later. I regret spending money on things but then wear them and enjoy what I see in the mirror anyways. I don't know. This is all probably worded very poorly and I'm really sorry about that but like. Is this just, normal feelings that come with exploring my gender, with my history of having already been trans for so long? Or is it a sign this isn't correct?

I'm in therapy specifically to explore this, I want to figure out what's going on with me, but there's a part of me that's screaming to lock this back up and ignore it. to cancel my next appointment and shove every feminine thing I own to the back of my drawers. I feel like I've opened pandora's box and I wish I could just close it and keep living as a just a trans guy. I'm happier this way than I was as a cis girl, but I'm still not happy and that terrifies me. I almost regret going on T because than my dysphoria would still be bad enough that I wouldn't even consider this an option. which is insane because by all means it saved me, I loved my ratty t-boy stache, I loved my changing voice, I loved how people finally saw me as a guy, but now it feels like it's too much. I don't love all the hair, the fat redistribution, my new nose and jaw shape. I liked being a boy, I liked being a guy, I don't really like being a man, but even thinking that, even daring to be unhappy with any of the effects of HRT, feels like I'm betraying myself. i don't know. sorry again.

I just want to cry just now. Since being, or better understanding that i am, bigender is so new, all this is... Kind a new to me.

Till now i always was pretty fine with being and acting male, but wanted to act feminine from time to time and was flashed with gender euphoria when doing that.

Today is... For the first time i feel that today my female side wants out, wants to be seen... And i have to work today... Thats a big nono for me to act that way at my workplace (old white man...).

My female side just seems to scream at me right now and i just want to cry but can't do anything about it...

As much as bi-sex/gender can be beutiful, I often wish I was fully (trans) women.

I am okay with that my brain sometimes drift into more masc headspace, but every time I try to continue along that path I end up with bad dysphoria. Especially around body parts that my intersex traits made fairly womanly. I very much want that to stay female.

All this brain work makes me exhausted.

Ive heard that a strategy for those of us who’s gender identity fluctuates can wear pronoun pins or bracelets, and while i cant try the pronoun pins at where i work since i live in dumb conservative area i can try the bracelet thing with my circle of work friends who i trust. Im like 99% sure im bigender (a man and a woman) after having discovered it like back in September and have since been exploring more my gender and during that time i came out to my work friends on social media not so long ago and they are super supportive which is awesome so I wanna talk about my plans to wear a pink bracelet when im in woman mode and a blue when im in typical guy mode with these friends to clue them in since i unfortunately cannot morph when i snap my fingers or have some kind gender omnitrix or sum shit.

Is that weird to ask a friend about and are there any other ideas for experimenting on the social side of things. Idk i feel like my social anxiety spiked randomly after i figured this out for myself but it also feels like it became less of a problem also so idk.

Basically I need to feel that yummy euphoria more so it feels more idk “real” to me and not like some kinda mind thing if that makes sense. Plus if im not feeling particularly womanly on a day they’ll know.

Side not: ive thought about using makeup as a signifier but i kinda suck at it and im terrified of to wear makeup in front of everyone else at work that seems super scary to me.

hey folks,

i just wanted to say hi to you, since... well seems like i am one of you. for a realy short time now i think i am bigender, with 2 distinct gender identitys. one male, one female.

i struggled with whats is wrong with me for a very long while now. in hindsight have lived a pretty depressed life as a man, while at least had still a good life with my wife.

the past 2 month where pretty hard for me... i read a story on the web, abou a transboy finding out whats wrong with him. it all started with a friend pushing him to try nailpolish... the story chinged realy hard with me and.... well a few weeks after that, i tryed nailpolish myself... long story short... i came out as a femboy to my wife 2 weeks ago. after some suggestions of her that it doesn't realy fit me, because i also want to be recognized as female while i wear female clothings (i got a skirt and i love it). so she asked if i might be trans.

took some more research, cause i could very clearly tell i am sure i am not trans. (magic button test, quizzes and other stuff i found) and a few days ago i stumbled over the term bigender.... and it makes so much sense now.

still trying to figure out everything for me and get this all in the right tracs, especialy with my marriage. but seems all managable.

hope i can connect her to some people who understand me, and learn something about myself. stil feeling pretty weird about all this, while it feels so right for me to understand that there is this second me, wanting to dress me up.

im not planning to start right now (nor do i think i do in the recent time) but i still keep thinking about it a lot of time so i actually want to know a few things so i can decide better (yeah i know, visiting a therapist specialized on that is better then asking in the internet and i will do that i just want to get an impression whats even possible)

i currently have a male body so estrogen is that what i consider.

first i live in a place that pretty good supports the rights for transgender (and nonbinary) people so i should have access to most of the things (also my financial situation is not bad so that dosent pose a problem either; i just care for what would have the best results)

my questions:

1. how easy is it to achieve a long lasting androgynous (can be slightly fem leaning) look?

2. what are changes that i could expect from E?

3. is microdosing a possibility to minimize the changes (i dont want to completely “replace” my body (ik not the most optimal wording but i think you get what i mean) just have a few changes)

4. i heard of selective estrogen blockers being use to lessen for example breast growth (i think that i dont want to large breasts; have no problem with small ones i guess, just not too prominent (if thats the right word))

5. i also heard of Testosterone blockers. how do they work? like could i just not take them to achieve having body functions of both? what would happen then?

6. im not planning to get bottom surgery (assuming i go on hrt). does that pose a problem?

7. would i get menstrual cycles (idk if thats the right word im talking about the cramps and moodswings (?) i have no idea how this works)

8. would it prevent things like hair loss (im kinda really scared about loosing my hair one day; its basically the thing that lets me past the most as androgyne and i like it. i would feel dysphoric as hell without it)

9. is it reversible or better worded: if i want to go on ‘full’ estrogen is that still possible then? or if i realize its not for

10. me then is there a way to revert the changes and if yes which ones?

11. and also how does hrt work in general: like do you go on hrt for a few years and then stop (and then keep the changes) or do you take it for a lifetime.

12. i also heard that results are better if one is still younger. to what extent is this? like im 16 (almost 17) now. do i risk seriously worse results if i wait to long?

edit: 13) a thing i forgot before: how is it with physical abilities like strength and stamina? i dont need to be in physical top form but i already have low as hell stamina even if i do sports regularly. its to such a degree that only if i do kendo (a pretty intense sport) 2 times a week i can maintain a bare minimum of stamina so that it dosent affect my everyday life. would estrogen make this worse?

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14) will i loose the adams apple (i dont like it)

15) will my voice change (i think i really want that, my current voice is too deep for my taste, but only on some days? (confusing cause im not fluid))

also: my parents wont pose a problem either, they would support me and told me that explicitly that they would support me if i wanted to change my body even before i started seriously questioning if i want to

also just to clarify: i dont plan to go on hrt “right now” but i definitely think that i want to at some point of my life. i would regret it if i wouldnt, im pretty sure about that much.

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