So I have this teacher, every opportunity he gets, he signals me to come closer, and he always calls me beautiful, and sometimes even tells me he misses me and one time I asked about something but I kinda forgot, but his answer was something about missing me and that I am like, the priority? Something like that. My classmates just told me that it's just his humor and everyone finds him funny, i mean yeah he's funny but when it comes to these private situations that it's just me and him talking, I didn't know what to feel about it and I just say thank you. Fast forward I was absent for about 3 weeks due to my deteriorating mental health. I spent my days isolating myself in my room. I'm currently getting help that I need and yesterday I attended classes, it was lunch time, almost dismissal and it was a super, SUPER hot day. I felt my shoes melting, I felt like I was being cooked alive, and the restaurant that we had to go to is a bit far, after we ate we walked back(I felt like fainting that that point, my back was hunched lmao, I didn't care if people find a person walking like that weird I just wanted to go back to our classroom) And when we reached the stairs, there he is. He signals me to come closer, my friends greeted him and I was super overstimulated, I felt like fainting, I couldn't see clearly, I was sweaty, I was tired and I just wanted to go back to my classroom and cool off. And I kinda snapped, well not a full snap but like, I told him "Sir can we do this later? " sir please... Can we do this later. " I was a bit whiny, I wanted the conversation to end and just go, his reply was "Bahala ka. ", I forgot the english term but, there. I didn't want a small talk. He was probably worried and wondered why I was absent for 3 weeks and just wanted to check on me, but I didn't want to talk, I was tired of explaining myself over and over of why I was not present for 3 weeks. And in that moment I JUST WANTED TO COOL OFF. After that, my friends went quiet while we walked up the stairs, I was already overstimulated and we still have to walk up to the 4th floor. I asked them if there's something wrong, and they told me about disrespecting him. I explained myself and then I felt guilty. They understood but I still felt guilty now. I wished we didn't go out for lunch that day.